I didn't really know what to name this, so... I just gave it a random name. Hot Wire I walk outside to a sunny sky on a gloomy day. Maybe today I can push all the pain that I feel inside away. All the hurt that has swallowed me whole, all the feelings of surrender and just raising this white flag up and letting it go. Running from my past 'Til it runs past me, look forward to furture where I just don't bleed. How many times do I have to trace back over these same steps that I had aready taken a step back on?l It's like the skies are falling and the world still keeps moving on, leaving me to think about all my wrongs. And asking myself how do I fix them when I can't even screw a cap back on, when's it's already done. But fix them I'll try even if it takes my whole damn life, becausing tryings better than living in a lie [Life takes hold] Grabs then seems to lose control!!! [Sometimes I wish that] It would just lose its grip and let me go!!! [Life takes hold And all I've gained is another pain that had came right out of a mood change Now it seems that I have seen too many thing and I'll lose everything] Until nothingness comes and swallows me whole!! Waking from a sleep, from nightmare rather than a dream. I try to catch my thoughts that I had already let go of it seems. What was on my mind Til seconds ago? Before I woke from pretend that's hallow and hesitant to let me go? My heart says it's beaten but my mind still whispers for the blood to flow. Words mean eveything when you just can't go on, a song to inspire you to live your life and to live it long. But I've already been beaten down enough, gone through trails and trails and I'm not calling a bluff. Like a big bad wolf is chasing me through the woods, I wish I could just stop frozen still, and then it would all be good. Yet, I'll keep going if it takes my whole damn life, because tryings better than commiting suicide. [Life takes hold And all I've gained is another pain that had came right out of a mood change Now it seems that I have seen too many thing and I'll lose everything] Until nothingness comes and swallows me whole!! [Life takes hold] Grabs then seems to lose contro!!! [Sometimes I wish that] It would just lose its grip and let me go!!! It's a crying shame, that this life someday has to end Just like it is a game, but a game that everyone has to play And thus everyone feels like giving up some days [Life takes hold] Grabs then seems to lose contro!!! [Sometimes I wish that] It would just lose its grip and let me go!!! [Life takes hold And all I've gained is another pain that had came right out of a mood change Now it seems that I have seen too many thing and I'll lose everything] Until nothingness comes and swallows me whole!!