Got Something You Want To Let Out?

But you see, THAT isn't my problem.

I know that I won't have sex with him because even if he tries I'll tell him no.

The thing is, if that happens I'm afraid he'll just decide I'm not worth it.

You know that I've been hurt before and I'm afraid it'll happen again.

 

Sometimes you just have to go for it. If you don't, you'll spend your whole life in fear of something happening again.

 

I dunno the full circumstances and im a bit tipsyright now, but any guy who will ditch you if you wont have sex isnt worth your time of day baby

 

hence the reason why i am not having sex at all with everyone...

it hurts too much. it isn't worth it. until i find someone who is worth it and loves me back.

 

But I don't know if he will or not.

And it's like a lose/lose situation. Because if I don't go out with him then I'll never know what COULD have happened. but if I DO go out with him...
aslfkaslfsh; i don't even know...
Alaina hates me now either way. But I'm afraid the rest of the guard will too if I even keep TALKING to Alex. And I don't think that's fair.

I wish I hadn't joined band sometimes.

 

Like I said, you have to just take a risk sometimes. Do you really want to go own with your life not knowing if you two could work? That's something that is unbearable, to me atleast. You could pass up "the one" in your life (small chance, but stay with me) because of past experiences.

Don't let the past win. Just go for it. Go out with him, and stick to your morals. You already have my respect for having morals like that, but if you do that... wow.

 

do it. (as in go out with him). if he wants sex, refuse, say "maybe later", and if he dumps you, well, you still have your virginity

wich, believe me, is a good thing

 

If he advances on you and you're not ready you tell him you're not ready. That's all there is to that story. You'll regret not doing anything with him if he's the one. But sure you might regret it if he's not the one, too. But that's how we learn. If he ditches you or leaves you because you won't have sex with him then he's probably not worth your time.

Going back to the conversation up thar, I regret losing my virginity. But I'm glad it happened because now I know she wasn't the one.

 

Thanks, Casey. That actually did help a lot.

EDIT - and Will. You both have really good points.

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But the other thing is. Do I take the risk of chancing going out with him and possibly losing some of my friends? If things work out between us, I might not care and they might see that it's not that bad, but if they don't, I'll be read the riot act by the rest of them and they'll do that "I told you so" thing that I hate.

askfjdhsg; stupid hormones.

 

My mom's always told me friends are forever. She was right.

[edit] Just to clarify, I realize that not all friends will have your back forever. But the ones that do are worth keeping and you don't want to chance losing them because of a relationship. Sure you'll be happy with one person but wouldn't you rather be happier with a group of people?

Like a security blanket.

 

But in a way, I'm seeing tham as being hypocritical right now.

I mean they're threatening to leave me if I go out with Alex.
And they're telling me to stay away from Alex because he might threaten to leave me if I don't have sex with him.

So aren't they BOTH threatening to leave if I don't do what they want?

Doesn't that make them just as bad as he is?

Jesus Christ, I don't even know. If I was one of those emo kids I'd kill myself. Luckily, I've got more sense than that.

 

it sounds like they're scared for you, trying to hit you wehre it hurts to make you see sense

 

dude, i just got done having this conversation with this guy that i'm kinda talking to, and he knows michael and all that shit he did to me, and he kinda had a situation like that, i don't know but this sounds like he's trying to get with me, or something like that and i would, but i don't want to hurt michael isn't that stupid?



by the way this guy is like michael's manager, hahahaha and he's gonna live with me starting at the end of the month. this is ghetto. i don't want to do this, i am so bad at this dating thing, i haven't had to do it in two years, i don't even know what is going on and i feel wrong about it for some reason.

i am such a loser.

 

That might be a little bit of a problem...so he's a senior?

 

Yeah, and I'm a Freshman. =\

 

Well, I advise that if you have any doubts about him being a good guy, just drop it. He'll probably be going off to college, and if you go out with him, he'll probably try and move faster to get sex or whatever he would want out of you.

 

Like what Matt said


Older he is, he'd want sex.

And try to get to you really fast

 

Want to know a secret everybody?

I'm emo...I truely am. After all the shit that has gone on, i'm just a depressing crying little asshole.

Thing is, I can't show it around anyone or else they'll think i'm a complete idiot.

 

Amanda: Not all seniors are sex addicts, but as you said, if you've heard rumors about that, then you might take that into consideration before taking a desition. And what about your friends threatening you? that's pretty shity from a friend, girl. But anyway, I don't reall know you, but honestly, you seem like a really smart girl, and if you ever dare to have something with him and you realize he kind of wants to use you to please his hormones, well, I'm pretty sure you're smart and mature enough to tell that bastard you won't be a sexual toy. I believe you already know how to defend yourself, so I don't really see a problem with that. Just give it a try, and if he turns out to be like that, you'll know what to do. I'm pretty sure you'd never let him use you

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Friskey: depression's a bitch, but it happens to all of us. You ain't being stupid by showing it, it's just in our nature. I can't really pretend to know it all and prescribe you something, but I'd try to distract myself from what makes me sad or worries me. If you need to cry, fucking let it all out until you're dry, at least that makes me feel better. I don't know if this is your case, but sometimes I seem to be fucking dying without a reason. This is when I feel like crying, and when I do, I honestly put on some sad music or something that will make me really sad. This helps me cry and after I've let it all behind, I feel much better, I could say it's a way of cleaning myself. But please, don't feel sad, we may not talk freely about it for the same reasons, but we all feel like that now and then. It's just a part of us we want to deny so ppl won't think we're dumb, but trust me, you're not the only one. smile!!

 

Wow, you really helped me.[/SARCASM]