Kevin's courage has actually inspired me to confess something myself. I wasn't sure if I should ever admit this on LPA, but because I can see that the majority of people on this forum are truly outstanding people, I've decided to go for it. When I was younger, say between 12-14 I was a hugely insecure person when it came to popularity and appearance. See I've never liked the way I look, I've always been a fairly big person and even though I've had some great experiences with certain ladies, I've never been one of those people who could really go and put myself out there for the girls (how the hell Dave does it I'll never know. ). Anyhoo in this time period I was going through some rough shit which I wont go in to because it's besides the point. I guess I kinda acted out by lying about certain things to make myself feel big and get some attention whether good or bad. I signed up to LPA around a month short of my 14th birthday and I feel ashamed to admit that during my first year on the boards, I lied about alot of stuff. I figured that no one would care if I told a few mistruths here and there to big myself up a little bit. This included a story of a girl named Sarah as some of you might remember. I said that at 14 years of age we were a tight, in love couple and that we gave our virginities to each other which resulted in her being pregnant. I also said that she ended up having an abortion and becoming seriously ill as a result. I even spoke to certain people outside of LPA about it including Dave and a few others and even wrote fucking pieces of writing to express how I was supposedly feeling. The fact is that that was all a lie. In reality Sarah was just a made up person based on a girl who at the time I was madly in love with. The stories I told on LPA were just certain senarios I'd imagined in my mind. I know it's fucking pathetic and wrong at that, but I guess I was just young and confused at the time. I quit all that bullshit my second year into LPA so no one really has to worry about similar things happening again. Since then the girl who 'Sarah' was based on has moved away from London and although I have had feelings for other girls since then, I've never done anything extreme as to lie about things involving them and myself so everything is fine. I've grown up alot in the past 3 years during which I have had sexual experiences with girls - It first happened just shy of my 16th birthday as apposed to when I was 14 like I told people here. None of that really matters to me anymore though. I'm no longer some snivelling little punk who felt it was cool to take advantage of a great community and lie to them about certain things to make myself feel important. I'd like to take this oppertunity to apologise to everyone I misled with any of the bollocks I said in my first year in LPA. I feel utterly ashamed of myself for lying to you. The majority of people here are really cool people and although I don't know you personally, the fact is that I log in to LPA at least once a day so in some weird way, you're all like my online friends. I know that sounds kinda sad but oh well, I mean it. I just hope people wont take me as a lying punk or anything like that. I was young and stupid and although that's a seriously overused cliche, I would never wanna do anything to loose you guys' respect. Particularly those who I talk to outside of LPA (considering I think mine and Dave's bands will be big and will tour one day lol).