Denial I feel the cat’s claws, digging into my tongue When my reflection, asks who I am I never mourned you Just fed you to my shadow Heartbreak led to hedonism Created a cornucopia of denial With neatly decorated lies And cleverly crafted excuses Disenchanted and desensitized Desperately clinging to vanity As insecurity starts to claw through Speechless Crawling back to my castle Where phantom limbs Caress romantic memories Undertow (Swim Away) You carved out my heart But I sharpened the knife Betrayal turned into control When you begged forgiveness Sacrificed my dreams and desires Thought I could love you, and you’d change Enabled with love, while reason atrophied Second chances disguised as compassion You could smell loneliness Like blood in the water Caught in the undertow I saw your fin approaching But didn’t have the self esteem To swim away
This is an updated version of one of my old poems. Atrophy At first we could barely keep our hands off each other But time is a powerful venom That causes romance to atrophy Soon we could barely stand to touch each other We began to live separate lives Shrouded our hearts in secrecy Veiled our feelings in shadows And wore smiling masks in public We became unconscious architects of our inferno An unresolved argument here A failed chance at communication there Schisms that divide soul mates Our hearts burned in selfish flames We could hear the crackles, and smell the cinders But refused to admit That there was a fire As I walked by the charred remains Of a once vibrant romance I realized why love and reason Are enemies