I got you and I know how you're feeling because of that selfharm thing because I did that too. It's bad but it's not the end of the world. You can always get back on track you know? You relapsed but that doesn't mean that your battle is lost and your victories never happened. We'll get back up. I'm sorry for your suicidal thoughts but as long as these are just thoughts you're above it. You're strong. I'm proud of you talking about it. Here with us. Please never give up. The worst day only has 24h and we can always hope for a better tomorrow. Someday we'll get what we deserve. It's a reason to keep going. The world can't always be dark.