To hell with the people who say"get over it". No one has the right to tell anyone how to mourn or how to feel about losing someone who means so much. He means a lot to SO MANY PEOPLE, who are absolutely crushed and lost. You aren't alone. Tell those people to say that to the millions of others who are in feeling the exact same as you. Whatever you do, don't harm yourself. Honor Chester by living. By beating this demon. Do it for him.