@Hybrid and @Louis, thank you so much for being here for all of us. It means so much. This past night was so tough for me... I broke down crying at 5am. I was a complete mess of tears and sobs, couldn't stop... I was at my best friend's place and she heard me. It's been so hard for her too. We've been fans of the band and together for more than a decade, Chester was our hero, he was the light we needed when nothing else made sense, when both of us struggled and keep struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression... It's so hard to believe in a better world for us, after what happened. Trying to keep myself together to help her too, but we're both a sobbing mess, and I'm just so scared of the future. So scared of not being able to feel happiness again. The band was and is the biggest part of my life.