Thank you for offering your support, @Sujana. I can attest as well that I am here for any and all of you should you need someone to talk to. As Sujana said, we are all in this together. Absolutely agreed - thank you, @Tobin To Myself. Thank you for sharing your experience. It is difficult to deal with different anxieties or forms or shapes of mental illness, or even just serious fears and phobias. To come forward with that, and to seek treatment for it, shows your courage and your willingness to seek help. I hope others can take from what you've shared, and we appreciate your willingness to help others, @Vinifeijo. It's okay to feel like shit - your reaction to this loss is not unusual. Loss of appetite, overwhelming emotions, fear of loneliness - are among the many natural and justifiable reactions to loss. Ignore your mother's comments, because family members are not the only people in our lives who mean something. For many people, they are closer to friends and colleagues than they are to their own families - and for others, the loss of an idol or role model can be absolutely devastating. Acknowledge that these feelings are normal, and understand that sadness and grief, as well as disbelief, are all part of the process when we experience loss. It's okay to feel this way, and to let your emotions out. The important thing is that, when you are ready (as you've done now, too), to talk about them - and to let others into your world so that we can empathize with you and support you. Please, please do not feel bad for grieving. The worst thing someone can do is feel ashamed for feeling sadness, grief, anger, or anything in that realm. These are perfectly normal - it means you cared, and it means you are human. There is nothing fraudulent about grieving over any loss. You don't have to meet someone to have tremendous respect for somebody. People grieve over the death of role models, icons, and leaders all of the time (e.g., see David Bowie, Prince, etc.). These people meant something to the world, just as Chester meant something to us. Our message on the front page encapsulates perfectly what he meant to us, in my mind - he was inspiration, empathy, and friend all boiled into one. It is perfectly okay to feel devastated - we all do. Thank you for sharing that, @Joe. Loss can be really impactful - oftentimes, these sorts of losses affect the way we sleep, dream, eat, and live our normal lives for some time. What Joe is expressing is completely normal, and I want to tell you that I really appreciate you sharing that. And Joe, you are exactly right - some people won't understand until they go through something like this themselves. People idolize and admire others all the time, even without having ever met them. Chester was a very substantial part of the lives of many fans, including our own. And many of us have followed him and the band so closely, that it truly felt like we know him - and we did know him in a way. Feeling the effect of his loss is normal, and human, as I've said. And Joe is right - this will get better. Stick together, share your love and your grief, and we will get through this. We promise. Agreed - Joe is right here. It's okay to not be happy right now. Again, do not shame yourself for feeling a certain way. "I know I shouldn't be like this, but" is a reaction that we feel compelled to make because we didn't personally know the guy as well as, say, a close friend or family member - but there are perfectly valid reasons why you feel as sad and devastated as you do. This is normal, and it is okay. I promise, it is okay - and that it will get better. Thank you for offering your support, @Anne. We appreciate it. I understand, @CharleeDanger. It is okay to feel alone on this - being a fan, or admiring someone at all, is such a deeply personal thing. Unless you're involved in a community like ours where everyone can relate, it's easy to feel like no one does or can understand you. I know I feel that way a bit, though some people did reach out and check to see if I had heard and if I was doing okay. And yes, these feelings come in waves. Sometimes you'll feel alright, and other times you will feel overwhelmed. This is perfectly normal, and I am going through this as well. Others will be able to relate to what you've expressed. Do not feel stupid for how upset you are. Again, this is normal. This is a part of grieving. It is okay to be sad, and to feel devastated. Do not shame yourself for that. Let yourself go through it, and you will feel better in time. And there is no set amount of time for grieving, or a tell-tale moment for when it stops - grieving varies for everyone, depending on what happened, what they've been through, and what type of person they are. Some people handle grief differently as well - internally or externally - so there is natural variability in how long or how intense this feeling lasts. But again, let yourself go through it. It is normal, and it is human. Agreed. Thank you for this comment, @hybrid. Absolutely agreed! Yes, yes! Agreed! Denial is normal. Shock and denial are natural stages of grief and loss. None of us could believe it when we first heard, but that is the nature of such devastating and tragic news, especially when it involves losing someone we care about. You will feel this way for a while, but over time and with healthy grieving, you will accept and you will get through this as we all will. This is all part of the process, and it is normal. You don't have to tell yourself not to think certain thoughts. Understand that your feelings are normal, but just let yourself grieve - and seek the company of those you care about when you feel alone. We are certainly here for you.