Well here I am again posting my feelings, though I wonder why I ever do. Read it if ya want. I just must get it out to share, so I feel like I'm telling people the problems at hand. I also did some Lupe references in there. Your physicality may not be aimed torwards me But still I feel the pain You look to unleash fear into his eyes And though I'm not on the recieving end I feel the greaving as the rain drips on him So I watch his eyes as they water and cry I just wondering why did it have to be this way? What did I do to feel this hate The hate is foreal that I feel his pain I'm going insane that I'm stuck in wake feeling the earth shake My world going round to make my brain rattle half-baked I want you to know that my hearts too shaken, stabbed, and taken' To listen to you for words of encouragment I'm looking for a life of something more Searching for a place where I can just look out a see the sun set Watch it set on top of the earth giving birth to what I write on my notepad, And think back to the times where it weren't bad My bro were second to No one We were your liquor and food Food & Liquor to soothen your wounds Now we're nothing but covered with wounds The type you can't see masked under zoom But I want to be something for the world wishes it And I picture it everyday in your forgetfullness So, I'll pray for it to the lord, and grab my board Skate to another place to feel greatfullness in this world A place where shit aint just about diamonds and pearls Those Conflict Diamonds you gave to your girl They brought so much conflict I feel like shit just thinking about it And what you see isn't always alright Some things will haunt you out of the light Bringing back the memories of the fight When you wake up it'll just be a blurred sight And you just don't feel right Copping the Coping choking your breath with a rope He's soaked with tears in fear of what's become clear But he don't see clear 'cause he's drenched in fear and tears severing his cheer I'm not happy to see him this way in the clear infront of his peers I use leer to bring him near Hoping I can protect him from the pain gained from the spite you gave him I'll try and save him from the demons, and his grieving The sleeping of the weapons in his brain Next time he'll use it to rid the pain Nothing's going to be the same from this day 'Cause now bro thinks he must protect himself No more hiding in stealth And he feels the need to stop the hurt So he bursts through the wounds to break new room For a new him that I never knew he had But I'm glad he's stronger at last I bet now he can protect his ass from the beating of the man Not a tad late I must add So daddy better watch what he does 'Cause bro's wearing the gloves And I watched him dig-dug a six foot grave You better run he's not taking your shit no more You may not be able to breath anymore 'Cause bro is looking for Gore His head is croweded This is too much conflict And I feel like shit just thinking about it And what you see isn't always alright Some things will haunt you out of the light Bringing back the memories of the fight When you wake up it'll just be a blurred sight And you just don't feel right