i refuse to change the world under my feet i refuse to taste the sweetness of caramel i refuse to see the kindness in me no wonder my life is a living hell i hate to stuck in the middle of my mind i hate the feeling of sorrow and pain i hate my self for not letting it out my sanity that lingers in vain i could wash away my fears by not letting it cross my heart discarding memories full of tears has long torn me apart i fear if i fail to change i dare not fail again the question of 'might' is getting me uptight is getting me strained is giving me fright i beg to differ what an excuse i dont even bother let me lose some day i should see the truth i would change my self i shall be okay i know i'd be fine if i'd skip a heartbeat with a picture of myself in my mind...