Riiight, not very subtle there, Cyphernite. Minus is right, this is a topic you might want to go a little more in depth with in Serious Chat if you can manage to provoke a little more conversation from your initial post. If this was a cry out for help from self experience I hope you receive the help you seek at a more appropriate source than a Linkin Park board. I've provided some links to encourage you. Remember, you're not alone. National AIDS Trust National AIDS & Sexual Health Helpline Help & Advice For AIDS At AVERT