Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thank you.

 

I'm sorry to hear that, Marj.

 

^ maybe your good into something else like Arts/Sports! Im not even good at it, I have problems on memorization but "focusing" to something like in your studies could help you out of it.


Sometimes people are just weird or maybe they just dont want rejections. When I start to say something that we could just be "friends" and nothing more than that they gonna start saying " Oh, what i told was just a joke!" and then after a year they gonna say again that they like you and i said let's just be friends..and say it again that it was a " joke". I'm starting to get irritated.

 

I nearly cried today for the first time with happiness when I saw my unborn child for the first time on the ultrasound screen. I have to say the gel was rather warm compared to the other gel that the doctor's use. My baby's heartbeat is going at the moment 162 bpm (beats per minute) and nothing can seperate me and my attachment to my maternal instincts right now.

 

^so proud of you plus thats a good heart beat!

 

You're probably better than I was, hah.

 

I wish my boss wasn't an asshole and that I didn't get called in early because my co-workers are immature/unreliable!

 

I'm a little miffed right now. More less, in shock, or maybe a simple, "WTF?".

Someone from some religious group came knockin' on my door about 5 minutes ago or so. Ya'know them people that go around door to door trying to make you a Jahova(sp?) or something like that. Anyway, I hear the dog barking at the door so I go down and check it out. Nice people, at first. Asked me what kind of dog I had and then they went into whatever it is they were trying to sell me. They asked me what it was I believed it, and I said, "I don't really believe in anything, really. Just myself. I take one day at a time." Then he was like, "Well, you must believe in something?" I said, "I don't believe in anything. Believing in something that we can't prove is actually real is ridiculous. I believe in real people, not fairy tale fictional characters from a book."

I guess I pissed him off. I was standing between my front door and my screen door because I was trying to hold back my dog, who was jumping at the door wanting to be nosey. The dude then grabbed my screen door and like, pushed it against me so I would go back into my house because he didn't like what I told him.

Stupid.

 

Ironic how a man of religion could be so aggressive, eh?

 

I'm giving up on the Islamic learning journey i've been subjecting myself to for the past few months. I'm a LaVeyan Satanist through and through.

 

I'm on my way to Jiu Jitsu... bye!

 

I almost died today but Thank God I didn't. The typhoon sucks but still I survived from it. Haha. But it gave me the idea that I should change into a more better peron and be grateful for all the bleesings I have. It may not be the best but still it's given for a purpose

 

I hate it when he (the father of my baby) says that he doesn't want to rely on my family getting stuff for our child when he has no idea what it costs to prepare for one. My mum has gotten all this stuff and I'm being given all Huon's baby stuff from my sister, and now suddenly he doesn't want it!

At least my family are living up to their word.

 

I'd invite you over for a few drinks and maybe if you bought a movie, mate!

 

I was I didn't drink last night so I could train today. Well, I can. I just don't want to now!