Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I apologize for ranting here, but it was the only place I could think of at the moment, so please bear with me. Both are in relation with things I have said before.

If you read about my neighbor that lives across from me, who actually watches me through his window...I got quite pissed when I took off the foil earlier and saw his shadow lingering. However, the brighter side of it is that I finally got the blinds up. It's just sick to think that he really was watching me all this time.

The other problem concerns my coach who I claimed earlier was starting to seem like a stalker to me. I mean, now it's getting a little difficult and often. He literally says my name loudly whenever he sees me and I also think he's been noticing that I've been trying to ignore eye contact with him lately. Also, it's quite embarassing because I don't want other girls in my school to think there's "something" happening between us from the fact he singles me out in crowds like that.

Something else that kind of disturbed me was what happened to my friend. Apparently she was about to go into the bathroom and he was walking in the same hallway. For some reason, he mistaked her as me although we look completely different: "Carl--oh...*friend's name here*" It just makes me wonder, am I on his mind alot or something? I'm so fucking scared that I'll have him as my teacher in the future. My grades will certainly go downhill since I've been already suffering mental effects from this...(denial, hate, ect.)

Once again, this could just be my sheer paranoia, but I'm scared of ever dropping my guard down and letting bad things happen to me.

PS - Ataka, your Ikuta Toma sig! (I'm sorry that this is totally unrelated)

 

Hmm. That does actually seem quite serious.

I would strongly advise you to report it to whoever is in charge of your staff. If this person is putting your grades into jeapordy - then obviously it needs to be dealt with. Get it sorted as soon as possible.

As for the other bloke who watches you? I'd recommend you report that as well. Invasion of privacy and the like.

*relurks*

 

I remember when Christmas used to actually mean something. Now it' just another day. I mean, I can actually fall asleep Christmas Eve.

 

Ah, Christmas. One of the most lonely holidays for a single person out there.

Seeing all these couples getting together for the holiday season... *sigh*

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*sigh* indeed.

 

It's worse when you have someone and you're forbidden to see them. It's so painful, not being able to see the person you're with for a whole month. It sucks. So hard.

 

I couldn't agree more.
It just seems to get less and less fun every year.

 

That stupid bitch. How does anything I do concern her? Honestly. I'm just having fun. I'm not coming to class drunk, I'm not doing anything dangerous. And she calls herself a friend.

On the other side of thingz0rz, I've bought myself (RE: my mother bought me) hard lenses, that you sleep in at night, and then in the day you can go around without glasses. I don't want them, but I've got -6 vision already, at fifteen..

 

Yeah, me too. At about 15 or 16 years old, Christmas started to lose its luster.
I think the fact that I stopped consistently getting gifts around that time might have something to do with it. After that it was "get a job and buy your own
shit." Not that I'm complaining. Christmas just used to rock when I was
little.

 

Oh! I've remembered something I wanted to let out: he said hi to me today it's stupid, because he's not the one I like, but still. That was pretty awesome. It was totally cute. I'm kind of upset that there's no school tomorrow (winter hols), because it would've been fun to see what'd happen tomorrow.

I miss the X-Mas days of the past, a lot. I don't know. Last Christmas I think I huddled under the covers and cried. This Christmas Morning I wrote a history test. Hmph.

 

Totally, I'm thinking about boycotting all pilgrim holidays but being even more like Chandler would be even sadder.

 

You aren't Chandler, you're Ross.

 

Note to self: Never sent a love-email to your ex when you're drunk

 

Three divorces, three divorces!

No, thanks.

@Chris: Doesn't sound like such a good plan.

 

Nope, bad one She got online today and said nothing to me or hasnt emailed me back. I'll see her again in a couple days I guess, I'll see what happens then. We're good friends so I hope I didnt messed it up

 

My coat, I button up for the chilly snow weather outside.
My mittens, I leave behind for I have pockets.
The snow is gentle, I stride down the street slowly.
The pace which steps with itself, I look to see couples.
Am I alone today?, Thoughts run through me.
Am I alone today?, Singly I walk along.
There is a girl on my mind, But so far away.
Theres this girl on my mind, But not in my arms.


All I wanted for christmas, Saint Nick, was a hug from my love.

 

Ahh, I hope so too, man.

 

so yesterday was christmas. it sucked. i was kinda lonely and upset since i made so many plans with my ex, and none of it was happening. but i was still doing okay (we only really recently broke up). and then i found out he has a new girlfriend and then he came on msn and abused me and told me about how he cheated on me the whole relationship. i knew it, but i didn't want to believe it. i'm in shock. it hurts. he's so rude. and i can't believe he moved on so quickly and i had to find it all out on christmas. fuck. i dunno. the last 2 years i spent with him feel like a complete waste now.

 

Christmas makes me realize how fat I am, and how I am never going to lose weight.

Bravo father. You have truly fucked me up.

All I want for Christmas is some therapy and liposuction.