Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Wait, I've been unbelievably close friends with her for 8 months, and I didn't know she was seeing someone?


Aw man, fuck

 

FUCKING PISSING OFF.

 

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I fucking care if she doesn't talk to me? It's not like she was ever my girlfriend...all I did was go to the prom with her. Fuck it. I don't even care anymore, I mean, how many people decline people they KNOW on myspace? Immature...she is. But whatever, now I don't care because she really has done nothing for me at all. I can't believe I act like such a complete idiot like that sometimes. Wow.

And sorry for all that, I needed to get it all out somewhere.

 

I'm more than sure there's no reason for me to be as intimidated by him as I am. First of all, he's half my size, which is ridiculous, because I'm already a small dude to begin with. Secondly, I know she's got a boyfriend, and she's not going to do anything with me, nor would I put her in that position, and I'm not going to attempt to jeopardize their relationship in any way. So why am I afraid of him?

 

Hmm I'm going to guess because you know that he has her, and you wish that YOU had her, so in a way he's sort of won which might make you think that he's stronger than you in a way? If that makes sense? Hmm


Daniel- Oh, sweetheart. Get back to my PM asap, I'm worried about you!! *worries ridiculously*

 

Yeah. That does make sense. But also at the same time it doesn't. At least not to me.

I fell for her before I even got to know her, which happens ALL the time when I meet a new girl who I'm attracted to. But then I found out she had a boyfriend, so I made it a point to just try to be her friend, because we've actually got a lot of friends in common to begin with.

But I KNOW her boyfriend doesn't like me, or at least has a problem with me talking to her, and it bugs the hell out of me, because I'm NOT going to do anything to come between them, no matter if I have to just stop being her friend to do it. They've been together for a really long time, I DON'T want to ruin that for them just by being some guy he thinks is trying to get with her, because I think he thinks I'm trying to get with her.

But I don't know. I was going to talk to him today but I couldn't. The only thing that flashed in my mind was him telling me off and shit, so I just didn't talk to him. I don't want him to think I'm trying to steal his girl from him, because I'm not.

 

Hmm, I understand what you mean. Like, you wish her to be yours, but you want her to be happy, and she seems happy with that guy. But i understand that you don't have much reason to feel intimidated by the person, and yet you are. I think I get what you mean. If you want to talk about anything ever, always feel free to PM or IM me.

 

I love him so fucking much, more then anything but he annoys me so much. and slowly I'm seeing my dad in him more and more all the time. :\

but I really love him and can't picture not being with him.

maybe I'm just being silly and getting mad at him for nothing and making him turn like that. I think I'm just going to put up with his shit for a while and still be nice, see what that does. :\

 

Yeah. I want her to be happy, so I don't want to come between her and her boyfriend, because he's obviously what's making her happy right now. I think I'm just intimidated by him because I don't want to end up fighting with him about her. I was explaining it to my friend, and I said I didn't want to end up fighting with him (not physically) in front of her because then she might get mad that I fought with him and then not want to talk to me. I want to be her friend, but I don't want her boyfriend to think I'm her friend just so I can try to get with her.

And thanks for the offer, dear.

 

Thanks Arlene, I appreciate it.

And Will, shit, that sucks dude. I seriously hope things get better for you.

 

who the fuck just cause my best friend to lose the only girl he ever liked? WHO THE FUCKING HELL

 

That was stupid of her. Stupid of me to think she would change. Not that I care all that much, I guess? I should have known she'd go running back to her. BFF? Whatever.

*whimpers* I wish Razan was here.

 

So people suck, I got that so far, but what the hell do all those girls see in such assholes and why do those girls act all stupid when everybody knows they're actually smart?
On another note: why do "smart" people here brag about it and make others feel like nothing? Memorizing ridiculous information, that you'll forget in the next week so you can memorize other ridiculous information doesn't mean you're smart...
Why don't they have any cultural appreciation? Looking at paintings and loving art is for geeks, listening to non-commercial music is for freaks... what the hell are they on?

Please, get me out of here.

 

I doubt there's anywhere you could get a full reprieve from those. But yeah, I feel exactly like that all the time.

 

Yeah, that's probably true... it's probably just me too anyways. All the others seem to be fond of their ignorance.

Maybe I'm just feeling superior to them in a way, although it's not what I mean to do.

 

Hey Yorick hon! Come stay with me. We shall shock the world with our geekiness and non-conformity in a kind of conformist way. Or.. whatever.

 

Sounds like a plan. <3

 

He's totally leading me on, and he's lied to my face before, and I'm just taking it.

I can't believe myself.

 

Don't take it?

 

i.can't.believe.i.cried.to.HER! my.ex?? what.the.fuck.is.wrong.with.me??