absinthe & arsenic with a side of blood close my eyes and clench my jaw if i bite down hard enough, maybe i can feel blood rushing into my mouth, between my teeth maybe enough pressure there can make me lightheaded a good long sleep can solve my insanity (death's a long enough sleep) i've become too lethargic for suicide. make me an absinthe and arsenic cocktail to sip and hallucinate, to swallow and sleep but don't bother trying to wake me. i don't want to wake up knowing that love, happiness, and salvation are only a dream. and that i'm living in a nightmare. plea-bargaining for bullets i've woken up in this manner before; suicidal and haunted. haunted by visions of you, ones no longer wanted no longer needed. i hate them so, i need a bullet to the brain to kill you, to bleed you out of my memories and heart. i remember an old friend of ours trying so hard to fix what is irreperable. they've given up (and so have i.) it couldn't last forever, you proved that to me. and i don't want a third chance at suicide. you could stab me with needles and knives and i'd refuse to bleed for you. i now have toxic burns and scars in every place you've kissed me. hurry with the bullets, my brain's bleeding. i have to pour it out or i'll drown in you again. drain the thoughts, the memories, the blood. it's so hard to start a new life but it's harder to end an old one (but it's oh so easy to pull a trigger)
wow! where have you been hiding? this was really fanastic! very gory and, just fab! both of them were really good, visual and painful. i love these!!! you have lots of talent and i think you need to write more to share with us!
I've actually been on another website, running a graphics shop I run. I haven't been able to write alot lately, since it's mainly been confusion more than depression. But don't worry, I'll post some new ones soon!
I also agree but both were great. The only thing i didn't like were some sentances didn't seem to follow the mood of the poem, though they were completely rellevent, it's in the way they were written. This bit just seems out of place, i don't know how to explain it, mabye i'm just crazy, great work anyway. B)