I Am Autumn Let me sleep at night With the dagger you wielded for me Out of revenge and dishonesty Let me die in peace So many resurrections Only to endure more hurt I know I broke you Now you’re breaking me Why can’t we stop breaking And start putting us back together? And if you’d rather go your way Let me die as I shed my leaves I’m so unmotivated I can’t kill myself So I’ll let you do that for me Poor me, swaying side to side Losing color, eroding in quality All because you took the axe And swung it into my hide I don’t want to hate you But I don’t see any other way When you’re finding other trees To give you comfort and shade I was the wind blowing through your hair Remember when I was your sunset All those times I made you beam Now there are no more leaves left Each time we’re together You reopen the wounds Even if there isn’t anything you do It’s just your sight The reminder that I’ve wronged And changed everything that was once going on The seeds we planted to grow a tree Has risen and now crumbles to ashes The branches of memories break and fall And all that’s left is the stump That I hold onto with all my strength Just say you don’t care anymore Baby, you’d be doing me a favor Like putting a horse out of its misery When its leg is broken You’d kill me But I’d die in peace My therapy would be a stake to my heart A noose around my neck A blade to my chest Your knife in my back I don’t want to watch us grow old If we’re not doing it together The last thing we can do as one Is end my presence forever Let’s hold the gun together, baby And I’ll help you pull the trigger I’ll save you a place in heaven Since there’s no place for me here