Mixed Signals and Half Truths Written and Copyrighted by Derek J. Oswald [First Verse] I'm running away from my feelings again, Forgetting it all, in the best way I can, Wont listen to you belittle me another day, Apologies cant help to make this go away [Pre-Chorus] You knew you were wrong, you knew I was right, Cant defend your mistakes, so you put up a fight, None of this stands as a reason to put me through hell, You act like everyone's perfect, but take a look at yourself. [Chorus] Can't explain the stress that you gave me, Why you threw it all away for your safety, Do you believe I deserved what you've done, I don't know what made you get up and run.. Dont want to dismiss it all till tommorrow, I'll bottle my feelings, forget all the sorrow. I'm not playing your little games anymore, For your dishonesty is the same as before [Second Verse] I hate the way you say things behind my back, Leave me to find out without a second to react, I love the way you made me out to be an asshole, How would you feel to no longer be in control? [Pre-Chorus] You knew you were wrong, you knew I was right, Cant defend your mistakes, so you put up a fight, None of this stands as a reason to put me through hell, You act like everyone's perfect, but take a look at yourself. [Chorus] Can't explain the stress that you gave me, Why you threw it all away for your safety, Do you believe I deserved what you've done, I don't know what made you get up and run.. Dont want to dismiss it all till tommorrow, I'll bottle my feelings, forget all the sorrow. I'm not playing your little games anymore, For your dishonesty is the same as before, [Bridge] You changed yourself in only an instant, Stranded me alone in the core of existence, I've grown disgusted by your lack of respect, You think I'm not good enough for you to accept (x2) [Chorus] Can't explain the stress that you gave me, Why you threw it all away for your safety, Do you believe I deserved what you've done, I don't know what made you get up and run.. Dont want to dismiss it all till tommorrow, I'll bottle my feelings, forget all the sorrow. I'm not playing your little games anymore, For your dishonesty is the same as before, [Pre-Chorus/Outro] You knew you were wrong, you knew I was right, Cant defend your mistakes, so you put up a fight, None of this stands as a reason to put me through hell, You act like everyone's perfect, but take a look at yourself. Take a look at yourself (x4) --- The Backstory: When I first started writing the song it was originally intended to be a spiteful song to one of my parents. We had just had an arguement and a few of the things that were said really made me upset. However, midway through the prechorus I realized the song better matched one of my failed attempts at a relationship. So rather then write an anti-parents song, I decided to base it off of a bad experience I had with a girl, and only then did the song really come together. The story behind it is that a girl had been giving me mixed signals for over a year, and then one day decided to just avoid me out of the blue, without any fair warning whatsoever. Lastly, thanks go out to Mark and my friend Jonny who gave me their suggestions to help make this a better song. If they hadn't identified the song's weak spots it probably wouldn't be as great as it turned out to be. Thanks guys.
I helped out on the 2nd-last and last chorus. I like how you used two different choruses, that's pretty unique. It's a great song.
Yeah, there was like..3-4 lines in the song (scattered around) that didn't really have the wording I really wanted them to have. They just lacked a punch. Thanks to Mark and Jonny suggesting some word re-arranging (or in one case with Mark, a completely new word) it came out exactly the way I wanted it. And yeah, I did the double chorus thing to kind of be different.
Like I said, straying away from structure would've made this a truly great song. Aside from that, I'd give it a 7/10.
Very nicely done Derek. I read the meaning behind the song, and now I realize that this fits what Lynn did to me perfectly - dumped me on the premise that "I'm sorry, but I'm not ready for a relationship for a long time", then three weeks later, she's already met someone new. Guess she doesn't have the sh*t to tell the truth. Anyways, fits my life perfectly...once again, well done Derek! B)