I hate working retail during Christmas time. Long hours/minimal pay/no thanks. Extended family just don't get it when I don't want to do stuff because I am too exhausted to do anything but the bare minimum. Plus, all of the mum guilt of not going extra for kids at Christmas time because I just don't have the energy or the time.
Tinnitus spikes are .. not the most pleasant thing. "Life is like a box of chocolate, never know what you're going to get" quote applies here, except choco is much more lovely. Last 9 days, it's been like going through the day with an old CTR-TV constantly playing on mute in the background - even in louder places. Then again, growing up watching movies on old TVs, I remember the brain is able to filter out that sound and focus on other things - as long as it's in a relaxed state. Cutting back on headphones listening for the moment just to be on the extra-prudent side. Keep protecting your ears and be safe
Hang in there buddy. Try some white noise if it's getting bad maybe. It's enough to actually drive some people insane, having tinnitus. Mine is the exact same way and I describe it just like that, as a never-ending CRTV whine. I wish I didn't have the ability to empathize with you, but I do. If that's any solace.
Thank you for the nice message That little annoying fellow has definitely been on the rise recently, and seems like it hasn't yet reached a temporary climax, so to say. It is a bit heavy on my mood at the moment, after 13 good years of habituation to a certain baseline status. But I'm hopeful things will somehow calm down after a while, based on previous experience. Trying to keep expectations low and let it do its thing for now. And yeah, I wish no one really would have to experience this stuff, but at the same time, it helps to know I'm not alone
I need to stay of Instagram comments at this point... I've somehow got my feed full of femcel BS and people saying that people like me are accountable for some stuff members of my gender did that I had no control over, and then if you complain about it they just say you're "playing the victim"...
Damn, I think my hearing took a strong hit end of 2024, because this January has been a though one. I think back then I ended up playing music on headphones more often than usual, for longer periods, sometimes at too loud volume, and forgot shit can get real without being careful. That's at least one possible root cause. Some days this month feel like small progress, but some days are not good, with some new worrying symptoms coming up. Like literally, this week, hearing radio-interference static-like noise as a reaction to continuous external sound, AND adjusting to the volume of the external source. Phew. The body/brain can be scary. But got to stay calm and positive. I like to hope that the healthier I treat my body (and mind) from now on, the best recovery I'll have on the long run. But that means a big withdrawal from one of my main passion, music, at the moment, as obviously, something is going funky for now.
I'd hate to have anything that interferes with music... Hope things will start going better with your hearing sooner than later
If only it interfered only with music I'll say it's not good at the moment, definitely not, but it can be much worse, from what I read. So I'm trying to put the odds on my side, and yeah, hope for the best. Patience is key, because hearing recovery (at best) and/ or neural plasticity are slow processes. Meanwhile, this venting out thread is a good place to write off some frustration or worries, I suppose ^^'
Is there any info on when/if LP are coming to Australia - from an inside source (hopefully)? I'd prefer silence than some glib comment.
I empathize with this deeply because I've probably said and definitely felt the same. That sort of feeling is significantly paralyzing and almost never alone. In my experience, though, the things that give me this kind of reflection do come with good reasons to go easier on myself, too, though. I hope you go easier on yourself, too.
Usually when people say things like "my problem is that I care too much" it's some stupid egotistical attempt at sounding humble but really just being a pretentious prideful jerk, but sometimes caring too much really can be a problem. I hate when I start feeling irrationally bad for someone. Some people I'll feel terrible for over something super small that they literally could not care less about and it sucks.
One of those days. After leaving office at 4 pm and waiting for 30 min, in the heavy rain, for my tram, heard there had been an accident. Since I needed to be online at 17:30 and knew I would not make it back home in time, I headed back to office, where I ended up working until 18:30. Out of office, I tried the local snack place because I knew I'd be home late, but all the food was gone beside one soup, so no luck. Once in the tram, there happened to be a control on the way, and of course, I forgot to get a ticket - that one is on me , that said, first control I've seen since COVID hit - resulting in a beautiful fine and an additional 10 min delay for me to catch my next tram. Oh, and I'm still not home, and I still haven't eaten. Nice one, karma. Welp. At least there is new LP tonight.