Keaton, that was very emotional... But remember, there will always be someone who will be there for you, you just have to find them. Now, I don't know if this relates directly to depression, but I think that it fits in here more than any other thread For 8 or so years, I have lived with an abusive stepfather. Not physically, but extremely mentally. Head games all the time and just all the other sh*t has really gotten to me. I no longer really care about anything, like my school subjects and I give up very easily on things. It turned me into an antisocial, low confident person. In grade 9, I almost blew up a teacher (flaming paper on road) - in attempts to make friends. From there I was at school less and less until I failed 5 of the 8 courses I was taking... Up until I met Cassie, I was a real wreck, I would avoid people at all costs and I was very alone. The problem with the stepfather is still there. He lies and plays head games and gets me to the point where I start to believe him when he tells me I'm useless and worthless. Everyone always says to get my mom to leave him and go fix our life It's not that easy. You see, over the last 8 years, he has put us into debt and wasted alot of money, always claiming to get his career off the ground. If we were to leave him, we would be left with nearly nothing, having to sell most of our posessions to pay off the debts. I don't really know what else to say, but all I can do is give you people some advice. No matter what the circumstances, always look on the bright side, or do something away from your pain, and something that you can focus all your energy on Anyway, I have to go now. Good luck
Depression sucks. Period. I hate it. Some pretty pointless things get me depressed. I've lost my best friend becuase I was a depressed illegitimate offspring of unmarried parents, well I think she's still my friend. I just don't know how to treat a girl properly. I have a girlfriend, she loves me, I love her. But I'm scared I'll lose her. When I think that, I get depressed. It all spirals out of control.
I've had my share of depression. And to me it was a giant slice of the cake, but to most, it would be nothing but a crumb. If there is anything that I see as a big influence on depression. It's love. Think about it. Mothers, fathers, husbands, wifes, boyfriends, girlfriends. When parents devorce, the child tends to become depressed.(I wouldn't know, but still, I've seen it.) When parents fight, the child becomes depressed and curious whether his/her parents will get a divorce. Boyfriends. Yes, we can act like total jackasses. First hand experiences, and hearing from some of my friends which happen to be women. Girlfriends. When a girl breaks up with a boy. It hits, hard. If you think you aren't an emotional boy, guess again. this hits you with plenty of depression. and it's even worse if it's your first love. You never ever forget your first love. If there's anything else that makes depression, it's dwelling on problems. If there's something you should do, do it. Don't just let it sit in your head and feast away at your brain. Your brain is not a buffet. It's a bad customer to this buffet, and you want to get rid of it. Drugs are another root to depression, but I'm sure you've learned that in school or from your parents. </end ramble> I wouldn't be to keen on taking adive from me though. I have enough problems of my own, plus I have to keep watch for three girls I know and act as their psyciatrists. And lately, it's getting pretty hard taking care of my own problems while helping them out, maybe I should focus on mine for a while now.
there is one bright side. the harder your youth is the more you can stand later which means you can achieve more then person who's life has been rabbit's and roses
I'm not competing for depression. Hell, I'd give it all to you if I could. (Sorry. ) It's just that, I don't need something big to me to happen in order for me to feel the things I do. If I had the courage, I would of been dead long ago by suicide. But instead, I just invite others to come and do the dead. I'm not saying I really want to die. I just at times want to get rid of all this. But as the days past by, the better it seems to get. (Not including 2003. :wth: ) Nowadays I'm seeing life in a whole new light, as they say. It's like... nothing's a big deal anymore. I mean, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger? (Aw ####, my problems kill me. ) Well, I meant now. Like, I'm not dying today. At least, I don't think... :wth: And since I don't know the day I die, I might as well live. I'm sick of depression and I'm sure all of you are. Having bad things happen to you really does take a toll. But that is life and what we have to do is move on. I know this now. And it's good I know this at the age I am, as well as all of you. You may lose a loved one, you may have been abused, you may have a desease. But you can't let that stop you from living life. You can't mourn forever. You were born to live. And live you must.
You're not crazy, I know EXACTLY how you feel...mainly I'm depressed now because I'm in love with one of my good friends (he knows it) and he is confusing me with the way he's acting...I know it doesn't sound like a lot but if you knew the whole story...but when he doesn't say hello to me, I get so freaked out and it's all I can think about it...and lots of other little things piss me off and depress the hell out of me. Luckily I've only ever been REALLY depressed for one period of my life...that was a TERRIBLE time... I think it's really important for everyone to have someone to talk to...personally, talking to someone who cares about me can totally help me in ways I could never have imagined...when you're depressed it does feel like no one cares about you, but the good thing is that it's never as bad as you think it is...
I've had my bouts of depression. For two years I was never satisfied with the person looking back at me in the mirror. I was my own worse enemy, and I never learned to live in the skin I was given. I was extremely unhappy. I used to dwell on these thoughts and they consumed me. I transformed into a bitter and all-around angst-ridden kid my mother and some of my friends didn't recognize anymore. I would cut almost everyday to focus on anything else other than what I was feeling inside. I've attempted suicide twice, the first was when I was on a field trip in Grade 8. The other not so long ago, a week or so before this past Christmas. I took 5 of my mom's sleeping pills, and slashed my entire body with a razor. I totally regret that night and how it effected the people around me (like Neil) About a month ago I was on my last few limbs for any way out. Neil suggested I seriously talk to my mom. I did, and it was probably the most difficult thing I've endured. I now have my visits with the doctor weekly, and I'm looking into counseling. I have come to the conclusion that my state of depression was all in my head. The way I looked at the world (half-empty) and situations I've experienced. I truly believe talking to those around you is worth a try. You shouldn't have to bottle everything inside you. You never come a step closer to anything.
Everyone has it so much more worse than me, I've noticed. I have had a lot of the same situations above happen to me. I'm never comfortable with who I am but I have to learn to accept it. I hope everyone can get through it.
See...people, there is a way out. It took us some time and some trial and error things to work it out, but talking to someone and going to a doctor DOES help. I have never seen Cassie so happy on a day to day basis. It's really great. Because when she smiles, its the cutest thing I've ever seen So remember, don't just sit there and dwell. Go DO something.
I have that feeling sometimes, and it's like monthly thing for me (my friend call it my "Comma" since I'm a male ). How I get through it, is that I go for a run. I tell my parents this, and I don't tell them what my problem is (generally they don't care anyway :wth: ). Most of the time I just run as far as I can until I run out of breath, then sit down on a sidewalk or a curb and just think until I can run again. Sometimes I just think of the kids that punk me out in school and how bad I should punch them in the head, but I never make that decision. They're not worth it... I don't know if this will help you, but it's what I do.
I hated life at the beginning of freshman year. I think I was a little depressed. I was defying my parents a lot. Everthing seemed confusing: school, life, friends. My parents thought I was doing drugs even though I wasn't, I never have. After a couple of months, I got used to life and got happy again Hopefully all of your problems are solved very soon. Keep your head up and maybe time will heal your emotional wounds. Suicide WON'T solve ANYTHING. DON'T DO IT! I used to take short walks when I was mad, getting fresh air definately helps.
Suicide doesn't work. Why kill yourself because your life sucks? So you can't have one? If it makes you happy...
This is a question to anyone who tried commiting Suicide If you really hate your life and you want a change, than why not just runaway? That'll give you time to think about your life. And I bet you if you runaway, it won't take you more than 2 weeks till you realize that you need to go back and start a new beginning.
I think any person can suffered of depression on any point of life, when I was younger when I was depressed I used to hurt myself, now I know that it doesn't fix the feelings your a having in that moment, it just make you worst, I'm always thinking that I'm so alone, and I don't realized that i actully hurt ppl who cares about me, I don't have a great life, but after I realized that I was doing things in the wrong way, I start being a little bit optimist, I have a lot of problems with my family and everything, and in high school I was always in troubles, I get depressed a lot, but I tried to keep my mind away for hurt myself (again)
Honestly its the same reason why people dont commit suicide. They just cant bring themselves to do it. Its a large part due to cowardice. I've tried it before and got as far as the parking lot right outside the apartments. Depression is just something that everyone goes through, you'll get over it real soon. For me, it always hits while i'm on summer vacation probably cuz during school theres too many things that keep me busy.
I was looking into running away as an option. But it had too many cons. Where would I go? Where would I end up? Would I be that much closer to my answers? Probably not. I always kinda figured if things got really bad I could walk to Neil's house (2 miles away) and hide in his closet. No, but just hide out for awhile until the stress and the emotions I was experiencing died down.