Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Okay a feel a bit better now. After being reassured that I am not a junky pregnant woman afterall.

 

Dean and Daniel: Yeah, I think I'm gunna. I'm waiting for him to call me, because I am so not calling him. Sounds petty, but I'm waiting for him to realize "hey, I haven't talked to my girlfriend in a week." Thanks guys.

 

I wonder what she thinks about me now.

 

It's your child. Not your mums.

 

This.

 

I guess I will someday. I try to be somewhat optimistic, even through my pessimism.

As for opening myself up to someone... Dating... that's scary for me. Plus am kinda insecure about myself.

I agree with this.

 

Well stated.

 

I can't believe my ignition key (out of all the keys on my ring) was the one to fall off AND out of my pocket.

 

By what I was told, the member left voluntarily.

I know where you're coming from but my mum's the only support beam I have at the moment.

Mum's raised the issue about my child's birth certificate with me, I wish she wouldn't at times. She's starting to push my buttons again. She doesn't want Shannon's name on the birth certificate but I do, because in the long run he has paternal rights.
I saw him last night, and I am not one ounce convinced that he knows what he's in for. He thinks it's going to be fun and games from now on. There was nothing about supporting me emotionally and physically in the next six months just the baby. Shows how much he apparently loves me still?
His dad actually bought an engagement ring for him to give to me.
I said no.
And that he should leave the property.

 

But it was because of going to the staff for a problem that was happening OFF the forums that this particular member chose to leave for a while. He'll be back eventually. He requested to be put on a temp ban, which was granted. This whole matter shouldn't have happened in the first place. What happens off the forums need to be dealt with on your own. If it happens on the LPA, then the staff will step in.

 

My actions are starting to scare me
Ever since all this bullshit with my parents have started up again
I am normally very very quiet when im upset or angry but recently ive been getting really loud and vocal when i get angry. yesterday when my mom was threating to kick us out, I snapped i started screaming and i mean SCREAMING! right in her face..then i was walking away i flipped the couch over..I'm not sure if im just getting really really fed up with it or it may be something deeper..i hope its the former

 

I'm sure you're just getting sick of whatever's going on. I'm not familiar with the situation, but I mean, that happens to everyone. If something eats at you for a while or if something shitty is happening, people tend to act differently than they normally would because it's hard to deal with stuff sometimes.

 

What a fucking horrible day.

 

So over all of this bullshit. Jesus you'd think I'd cheated on her the amount of hate that's being shown towards me. And I haven't even done anything.

 

Messy break ups are the worst and I know how you feel. I hope things brighten up for you Daniel.

Me? I've got a head cold and it's annoying because I can't take cold and flu tablets for it and I've got to cut down on my intake of painkillers to get rid of this headache that always comes back.

 

Ya but why now. I've been sick and tired of it for the longest. Idk why im acting up now

 

That's why- because you've been sick and tired of it for so long. You just were dealing with it differently before, and it's just built. You know when people say that you need to let it out sometimes? That's why. Because if you let shit eat at you, and let it keep building and building, you're just gunna snap and do something irrational/you wouldn't normally do.


Daniel: I'm sorry to hear that things are that way. She's just...bad news. I really think she feels guilty because she knows it's her fault that you guys didn't work out, but she's gunna take it out on you because you're the only person she can take it out on.