Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Awesome, I've been promoted at my work to supervisor, which means the only person above me is the manager, which is slightly frightening because now I start over 4 hours earlier than I used to (which also means I'm going to get paid a bitch more) and I'll have a hell of a lot more responsibilities and things I need to do, really hope I don't screw it up, can't wait to get to work however I'm slightly nervous.

 

Congrats, Tom! Awesome, indeed. *high five*

 

Seriously I HATE guys who want to start something with me over the internet just because they think I'm cute and at worse, just for being Asian. This guy who added me on Facebook is being very pushy with me while I've only said like one thing to him. He's asking me for my AIM but now and I want to tell him to buzz off or something. I just want him to leave me alone. Then again, the fact he lives relatively close doesn't help. >>

As for me and the same ol' teacher/coach:
Seriously, nothing is creepier than having a male teacher hide behind a door and stare at you. I mean literally, this guy was crouching slightly behind his own classroom door looking into my classroom. It was a little before our class started and people were chatting as usual. I sit in the back and as always, I didn't really talk much. Someone pulled out a random comment on our previous gym class period and I laughed and responded to her. Then my eyes avert to him just standing there, staring at me. I look down and he then he quickly withdraws to his room and closes the door. If I had the chance, I would have literally closed our door on his face, gave him a face, or pointed at him. I should have done SOMETHING to notify him that I knew he was standing there. I wanted to cry.

But you know what really pissed me off:
Another day, I was walking to my Art History class from the cafeteria. It was second lunch and it hadn't been dismissed just yet. I always walk early to avoid the post lunch rush of students. Going my way, I see this man come out of the faculty room further down the hall. He spots me and literally walks back into the door frame. (Yeah, as if I wouldn't notice, by stalling his time in order to talk to me. This man is so predictable.) Once I pass the door, he "randomly bumps into me" and stares at me for a couple of seconds. I half wave him at this point and stop my steps. He then asks, "...so how's life?" Obviously I am forced to answer and he walks by me to my class. After we finished, he walks ahead to his own empty classroom and lets out a big sigh of relief with a smile on his face.

Then I'm left to break down, as always.

I sometimes think he is aware of his actions and what they do to me. Other times, he probably thinks I'm "troubled" because of stuff in my life, like my family or something. Seriously, I think he has no brain if he can't figure out that he's the cause of my misery and the fact that he is so predictable. Worse part about it is that I can't say anything about him yet because we both know the consequences of that, especially if I can't prove it entirely. All I can do is really avoid him, go with friends around him, and not let it bother me. However, this has been increasingly hard as he gets creepier every day. To give some security in my life, I've actually let go all the details to my Mom who knew about the situation only a little bit. Strangely enough, she then revealed that she was in the same exact scenario at my age. I mean, at least she understands how I feel...one more year and I'm out of this school and away from this man.

 

Thanks man.

Basically it means that me and Adam (Other supervisor) are now basically running the club and Michael (Manager) will be checking every now and then. So on the plus side I get a hell of a lot more pay, in charge of a lot more, etc however the bad side is that I've been working here for just over a year which means I know a lot of the people quite well who work here so I really hope I don't have to hand out disciplinary forms if they are late or don't do their job etc.
I will hand out the forms if need be, but I don't really want to be put in the situation. :\

Can't wait though, start tomorrow to be shown all the new things I have to do. ;D

 

Congrats, Tom! That's great!

Ori: Yeah...teachers think that their class is ever the only class that matters. What an ass hat. That was extremely rude of him to talk down to you to the whole class...what a jerk. Maybe you should take it up with him after class. Just tell him that you don't appreciate him treating you like that when you were doing something responsible (aka taking your AP tests) rather than just skipping.

Moniku: I know what you mean that you can't take it up with the admins or something because then it'll turn into some huge thing...but maybe you should go to talk to the principal or someone and tell them exactly what you wrote here. Say everything that's happened, and even if it was meant as harmless, it's freaking you out. You shouldn't feel like a victim walking around the halls in school, like you need to hide in the drop of a hat. You should really try to talk to someone about it...or if you'd rather not, see if your mom can come to the school and talk to someone for you. I'm really sorry this is going on. That's not right.

 

That's great, though, every job has it's downside. I don't mean this in a bad way, but you're pretty young to have a job with such responsibility, I think people should take that into account. Best of luck.

 

Yeah, I am 17 and I'll be doing all the administration work for the club, figures, pay checks etc, so it's quite serious stuff, If I screw up, people don't get paid.
I'll be 18 in just over a month and I would concider myself quite mature for my age, certainly more mature than some I work with.

I don't anticipate having to hand out diciplinary forms because everyone does their job fine and there aren't any complaints and most of the people actually said they felt fine at having me as their supervisor and that I'd be good at it once I got used to it. Which doesn't sound like much but actually hearing them say that to me is quite a confidence boost.

How's things at your end man? Haven't spoken in quite a while.

 

I feel so closed up right now. I try to talk to people and I feel like I'm being distant. I can't make friends in real life, because I start to panic and wonder whether or not I'm going to make a fool of myself.

I fail at life.

 

i had gone cold turkey for two months of my ciggies but then recently something has come back and now theres a pack sitting in my drawer...do i need help?

 

^ I'm slowly getting off my cigarettes by sheer determination. Because in the long run, it is up to you in the long run. I didn't go cold turkey straight away because it drove me nuts, so I slowly got off them. Good luck with that Evan.

I don't know if I have told you guys but I'm in a relationship and I'm quite happy in it. But as many of you know what happened in my last relationship, I'm very somewhat cautious for the early signs that he (Shannon) might be controlling. I haven't told my parents just yet as from tomorrow we would have been together for about a week now.

 

Not in my main band anymore and fell out with two of my best friends all in the space of 24 hours. Yay.

 

I am officially fucking SICK of people telling me what I can and can't say.

The word "queer" means "odd" or "abnormal". It's also a derogatory term for a homosexual. When I say something's queer, I mean that it's odd, or out of the ordinary. I don't mean that it's homosexual.

Same with "retarded". It means "held back" or "slow". When I say that my computer's being retarded, I mean that it's being slow. I'm not taking a shot at mentally handicapped people.

If I offend anyone, it's not intentional, and it might actually be because of the way THEIR brain works, rather than the words that I'm saying. Crack open a fucking dictionary next time you tell me I'm being offensive.

 

I wasted two years at my school by not talking to people. My "look I can live without you folks" attitude probably made me lose the opportunity of meeting a lot of awesome people. Now I realised this my stomach hurts so badly I pretty much can't eat anymore.

I think I never regretted something as much in my life. Fuck!

 

I just watched two kids, both no bigger than my littlest sister (who's about three and a half feet tall) playing outside ON THEIR OWN. One of them climbed onto an exercise bike designed for people a good two feet taller than her, and the other one is climbing on one of those metal barrels used to store liquid and stuff.

Parents who don't supervise their kids when they're outside, especially when they're that little, need to pull their heads out of their asses and pay attention to their kids. If someone were to come up and try to take one of those kids, they'd get away with it, because NO ONE is watching them, and the kids are too small to do anything other than yell. As it is, they're yelling because they're fighting with each other, and still, no one's paying attention.

 

Retard also means to bounce back, in physics anyway.

 

I hate to be a pedant but in more modern usage the word "queer" does pertain much more to lgbt people, and the same goes for "retard" and mentally handicapped people to a degree. Vocabulary and semantics change, that's what happened with the word "gay". I get what you're saying though.

 

People are way too freakin' touchy though. That's why I avoid using those words at all costs, even if I think it's ridiculous that I have to do so. Someone will always be offended about something. Always.

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So, I've started going to the gym with my sister and friend Rachel, and it feels great! I'm happy that I'm doing it. Gotta tone up my abs and arms!

 

This is a double edged sword though. As the parent of a developmentally disabled child who receives extra help at school, I have her come home almost daily upset and crying because someone was making fun of her or calling her retarded or stupid. She is neither of those things, actually for her age she is exceptionally bright, she just doesn't hear things the same way other people do (auditory processing disorder), and it makes it hard for her to learn.

Am I being too touchy? I don't think so, I am pissed off because some little punk upsets my daughter though. Kids are cruel, and even though they don't have a full understanding of the situation, they will find a way to mock anyone that's even slightly different than they are.

 

I forgot about that definition.

I understand that, but most of the time, people get after me when it's obvious that I'm not slamming anyone. It just gets on my nerves after a while.

I tend to say whatever I'm thinking, because I'm really impulsive (that I can pin on my ADHD), and because I just don't get why people take offense to so many things.

And good luck with the gym. I'd start going to one, but I really don't care that much about the fact that I'm skinny and have no muscle tone at all. XD

When people use those words in an offensive, mean-spirited manner, I can totally understand people getting pissed off. I've never used those words in a mean-spirited manner, because I've had it done to me, and I know how hurtful it can be. After a while, I just started letting it slide, because I figured that if I let everything people said hurt me, then I would miss out on a lot.

HOWEVER... I don't condone people using those words in an offensive manner. It's childish and rude, and it just proves how little disregard some people have for people other than themselves.

It's not exactly the same thing, but I'm a polydactyl, which basically means (in my case) that I was born with an extra thumb. My parents had it removed because they knew that kids would take advantage of the fact that I was different, and pick on me because of that. Even though it's gone, I was still teased because of it, and it honestly hurt, because it wasn't something I could change or hide. It was part of me, and these kids were making fun of me because I was different from them.


I think I might have APD by the way. I was trying to find what might be the reason for me missing what people are saying sometimes, and I found out that the description of the symptoms of APD are really similar to what goes on with me.

 

I know. I understand and agree, especially now you put it like that. I'm just saying that those are what the most common semantics for those words are currently. It does annoy me when you have bleeding hearts who focus so much attention on people simply using those words slightly out of that context when it isn't necessarily an act of bigotry, even though at a very base level I think I lean more towards being against it. For the most part I don't tend to use those words at all myself, but as much as anything that's because I often enjoy trying to be as verbose as possible where I'm allowed.