Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Oh maaaan, I know exactly what you mean! It's so frustrating that he doesn't notice how much it would mean to you, right? I don't think that there's anything you can do but to wait it out I guess, and when he does phone or text you, just tell him even if it makes you feel like a whiner. Don't let those dreams get to you, they always get to me and fuck me up and in the end it's absolutely nothing. I'm also always here for you if you need to have a talk.

 

Thanks Marj. I actually had a good dream about it last night, and it made me feel a bit better. For some odd reason, he was singing Disney style to me...haha. Anyway, yeah, I'm hoping he'll call me today. *crosses fingers*

 

These people make me fucking sick

http://blog.wired.com/27bstroke6/2009/04/funny-anti-gay.html

 

He STILL hasn't fucking called me. Now I'm just plain hurt, and getting angry. He's really not thought about me ONCE?! I mean, yes, he's on vacation and I don't expect him to talk to me every minute he's there, but he's been there since Saturday and I've still heard nothing.

I left a guilt message. I hope he calls and feels bad. :angry:

 

Well, it's time for me to stop being an idiot and just ignore her. She confuses me too much.

What's the point anyway? It hurts when I talk to her and it hurts when I don't. I shouldn't have talked to her again in the first place. -sigh-

 

I miss you, btw!

Buuuut, to my point lol... maybe he's busy?
Don't jump into conclusions before you have taked to him. I mean, yeah boys are very much of assholes sometimes (sorry!) but maybe it's just a misunderstanding. Hope you feel better though, and I'm on msn again if you wanna talk <3

Just give it some time and he'll come around

 

Holy crap ORI! I thought you disappeared forever! !

Thanks...and I know that he might be busy or just enjoying the vacation, it's just that he told me that he would let me know when he got there, which he should have late Saturday night, meaning he had all day Sunday, Monday, and today to contact me and he still didn't. That's really what bothers me. But I'll get over it...hopefully he calls me soon.

Thank you hon. And I don't use MSN anymore because I'm on a different computer and I don't feel like downloading any more stuff on this computer- it's slow enough, haha. But I do have AIM!

 

MAYBE His phone is dead, or that place doesn't have a good signal. Remember he loves you too so listen to everything he has to say before reacting.



i feel fucking frustrated and nobody can't do anything to make me feel better with this situation, there is no solution. Impossible. idk what am i gonna do. it's just so hard!!

 

Arlene-dear, Johnny raises some good points. You seem to be a lot like me, taking little things that are bad and blowing them up to the point that they start to outweigh the positives. Like Johnny said, Josh does love you, so don't forget that.

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Fuck, I can't do anything right. It was our two month yesterday and I majorly messed it up. Darcy got a Sidekick, so she wasn't paying me as much attention as I would have liked. I kept saying things were fine, but she could tell I was mad, so that made her mad/upset. I apologised, so things were okay.

We went out for lunch at the foreshore, and that was nice. Things were good then. But after that we went back to her place and the whole thing started over again, but I tried not to let it show this time. After around half an hour we went to the shops for a little while, and while we were there I asked if she could keep Sunday free. To which I got "I don't know", which kind of got to me because it just gives me the feeling that, even though I ask first before anyone else, she can't keep time for me or make plans. So I blew that out of proportion and she ended up getting pissed off. I think I cleared things up before I dropped her off for work though, she seemed okay.

Basically it just boiled down to me wanting to make yesterday really special, failing at it, and then when I didn't know when I'd be able to see Darcy next to make it up to her, that got to me too. Essentially I just always take things the wrong way and manage to fuck them up. I might get to see her this Friday, but if not it won't be until next Friday, which sucks.

Wow that's the longest rant I've made here in a while.

 

I just passed a kidney stone. Fucking hell.

 

You're too young for that! Josh had one in November, and I know it was really awful for him. For days, he was just waiting for it to pass, and I picked him up one day to spend the night at my house, and just going over any time bump in the road hurt him like hell. They said the reason was from him drinking so much tea...there's something in tea that causes kidney stones, apparently. I'm so sorry to hear that you went through that..that sucks. !

Johnny and Daniel: Yeah, I know... You guys are right. It just hurts. I hate when he does little things like that. And yes, it's a possibility his phone is dead, because every time he goes somewhere, he forgets his phone charger. He's forgetful. But I'm really sick of hearing that excuse, to be honest. Oh well. I'll talk to him soon, hopefully. Still haven't heard anything.

 

Yeah, I've been dating Lexi for 5 months give or take some days, and it's past the point where we blow everyone else off just to be with each other, and some days it's like "Well I don't care if you hangout with them, I'm sorry I didn't call and make plans first, Just go and have fun" and then I get the "Okay, well I'll see you later then."

But not ALL THE TIME, just sometimes, but we make it work great and I love her.

 

Yeah, I'm hoping to get to that point. I think my problem is that my last relationship ended because I was told I wasn't affectionate enough, so I'm probably going overboard with Darcy trying to ensure that doesn't happen, therefore going too far in the opposite direction.

 

I guess I can see how that can be a bad thing. Too clingy? sort of.

The best thing is to talk about it and maybe tell her you apologize in advance for anything you might do, you're trying to figure out how to be the best person for her that you can be and you're doing this because of how much you care for her.

I think I asked Lex if there was anything specifically what she liked that I did for her, she replied with something like "Worrying what I want."

 

This is actually a pretty dark hole that I'm falling into..

Things must get better..

 

You know I'm really frustrated right now.

 

The thing is... Girls like when their boyfriends call them randomly durind the day and say stuff like "I miss you or I love you". It doesn't mean guys have to be in the girls' back all the time and tell them how much they care about them 24/7 but it IS nice when guys call you once in a while ou of nowhere and they let the girls know that they are still special for them.

Honestly, the girl might not say it to the boyfriend but it's a huge deal the whole "affection" thing because girls are more emotional than guys in a relationship and it does feel good when someone tells you "You look pretty" everytime you encounter them.

Just from a girl's pont of view! (Unless I'm a man but I guess you guys'll never know xD) nahh, I'm a girl, people.

Anyways, hope it helps!

<3
Don't be. Things might get better soon to make you feel better.

 

As of tomorrow I'm not drinking for as long as possible.

 

You okay, Dean honey?

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At least Josh finally texted me. Granted, he was upset that I basically yelled at him, but he doesn't have reception there. I mean, he was able to text me today so maybe he was somewhere with reception, I don't know. He's still upset with me, but I think I did have reason, but I apologized for yelling at him, but I didn't know, so of course I was going to be upset. That's who I am and he knows that, ha.

And now we just had an upsetting evening and I wish I could just talk to him and I can't and that just really sucks. I need to talk to him for real.