Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Jen, you would find something nice to say about anyone, even me

 

I personally liked Sarah.

Life is too damn short to be mean.

 

Life's too short period but I tend to be a very vindictive person. She got on my bad side and annoyed the hell out of me and to be honest, I like this place a lot more without her.

 

That's fine, you have a right to your opinion, just as I have a right to mine

 

Lets all stop talking about her before something happens that doesn't need to happen. She's gone. The end. Move on.

Sorry to put it so bluntly, lol.

 

High Five.

Back on topic...

I'm so drained lately, it almost feels like I have no energy for anything but I still manage to work and function as a normal human being. I have a lot of trouble sleeping at a normal time and my whole body aches at any point of the day. I tore a tendon in my wrist which doesn't help when the only thing making me happy right now is my bowling. I don't want to be alone but going back to my energy issue, I don't feel like I have the energy to try and go out with someone right now. I'm so fearful of not being good enough for anyone that I don't try to get to know them because I see nothing in myself. I feel like I'm just a nobody destined to do nothing of importance and mean nothing to anyone.

 

I'm sorry, but sometimes she was...



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Life sucks.

 

Becareful what you say it might come bite you in the backside. I never liked you from the first account I had and I knew who not to be friends with.

 

...

 

I knew we had a lurker!

Anyway. So my trip in NY was great. I wrestled like an idiot, blew out my knee and got a slight concussion. It's alright though. It forced me to go out and buy a mouth guard, which is one of the best ideas I've had in a long time. We left Saturday morning and came back Sunday night. While it was 70+ and sunny here, and was like 40 and rainy all weekend up in NY. There was 3 inches of mud everywhere and by the time I got done wrestling I looked like fucking Swamp Thing.

I went up with my frined, his fiance', and another dood. 10 minutes into the trip my friends fiance' got on my nerves and the entire trip she reminded me of why I didn't like her when I first met her 2 years ago. I gave her the cold shoulder the entire weekend because I wanted to try to enjoy myself as much as possible without her annoying me. Some events happened where we argued and I had to put her in her place and tell it like it is, because that's the kind of guy that I am so that's what I do. My friend didn't like this. He said I should stop disrespecting her but when in my opinion she should respect me first after I got their car stuck out of a ditch in the pouring rain and in the pitch black without even a Thank You.

When we got home I deleted her off my Facebook, MySpace, AIM, and out of my phone. I just didn't wanna talk to her. After all, she isn't MY girlfriend. I didn't even wanna be her friend but I kind of had to if I wanted to stay friends with my friend because he forces her upon everyone by bringing her to all these wrestling shows hours and hours away from home when she has a 5 year old daughter. Ridiculous. You don't go to New York or Florida for 2-4 days when you have a responsibility like a daughter like that. My girlfrriend has a 3 year old and I wouldn't let her come to my shows because of this. Anyway, so my friend decided to send me a long message basically saying that he's done with me, try to learn about family life, and work on my anger issues.

The best part of the weekend was the hotel. Holiday Inn Express motha' fukka! I went to the spa, chilled in the hot tub and got a free breakfast Sunday morning. I felt like man. Me and a few friends are planning a trip to Ocean City, MD this summer and were so gonna hit up a really good hotel.

Arlen, dear. No offense, but New York can suck a fat one.

 

^ Actually I came back on here for a second and decided to check out everything else.

 

I agree.


Ah well.
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I'm sick randomly. By randomly I mean one day I'm vomiting the next day I have a cold, then I get a cough. :S

My body is weird.

Oh and I half started my exam revisions. Well not really. Kthnxbye

 

man i hate when me and her fight over stupid reasons =[

 

Good.

 

It's sometimes rough for me to understand why people dislike others. Hmm.




T_T my day's plan on how to get to work is ruined. Darn.

 

...and he's slowly becoming a douche bag again. Ugh.

Edit —
This isn't directed toward anyone here, by the way.

 

im so done with her
i cant believe it

 

I'm sorry :/

 

its like she wanted me to catch her
pisses me off

 

I suck at maintaining friendships, I finally met someone who really made me happy, and what do I do? Be my usual fucked up, overbearing, manic self, and they couldn't handle it.

I don't see the point in caring about anyone at all when I just end up driving them away in the end.