Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thank you.

and WHY? you're talking about school right?

 

Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. They're just so fucking slow. Apparently, I just have to wait for some simple confirmation letter before I can resubmit this application (for a third time) and then I'll be set. The trouble is they said this letter would arrive in less than a month -- they said that in December. -_-

 

What a crap. I'm sorry.

 

Thanks. <3

 

Marj and Cam.. <3 We've went through this a few times with other family pets passing on, but it just never gets any easier in the beginning. Especially since my Mom had gotten him when both of us were just a few weeks old, and we shared the same exact birthday. I don't know if it's actually good news, but now that he's gone and there is no more constantly thinking about what we can do to help him, I realize just how much he needed it, and I'm almost positive we did the right thing now.

And Marj, I remember some pictures you posted of him quite a while back, but I didn't know about your piggie.. It's a little late, but

Wow, Cam.. that is terrible what happened to your cat. :sad: But I gotta say, that picture made me definitely made me smile. I didn't expect such big eyes to be starting back at me. He's adorable.

 

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I just ended a marriage.

 

Well damn me.

Weather or not this works, I fucking hope it does.

If not, it'll be the end of one of the best friendships i've ever had.

Ever

 

I'm in a similar-ish position with one or two people. I think.

I'm going to put myself first now, though. If people want to suddenly decide they don't like me then fuck them. I finally seem to be getting over my depression and I'm not going to throw that away for their sake. I'm still going to do everything for my real friends, but them? Well, they have a pretty big job on to convince me they deserve that. No more trying to help them when not only do I get nothing out of it myself but it's actually to the detriment of my condition.

This might sound cold but I've realised that sometimes you should just do whatever is best for you... and failing that you should keep as much of a limit on the damage as possible. Don't be reluctant to leave people behind if they aren't doing you any good. Of course, before it gets to that I hope that whatever you plan to do does work and that everything comes up roses between you two.

 

Ugh. Someone shove a pencil through my ears and damage my memory, please.

 

...why?

 

Some of my actions in the past either embarrass or sicken me, or do both.

 

Life depresses me, something needs to change.

 

I nearly did something stupid for no better reason than i was curious, my mind had escaped me for a moment and i had the scissors in my hand, what an idiot...

 

Well I think I've decided that even if it seems Cold and that like I don't care that it's best for me to go my own way and not worry about it and to not feel any guilt over it. Now I just need a job so I can get an Apartment and live my life how I need to.

 

@Derek:

It seems to me like you want things to work with this girl a little too much therefor you want things to move quickly. People need space though dude. If you've only known her for 2 1/2 weeks then just wanting and expecting something to come out of it isn't really wise because, regardless of how much you've been hanging out with her, you can't put all your eggs in one basket. If things don't work out then it just makes it that much dissapointing.

My advice is not to panic and just go with the flow of things. There's no harm on asking if she wants to hang out some time, she's only human and isn't gonna bite your head off lol. Just play it casually and don't stress about it and most importantly don't expect anything more than friendship until you're confident that she wants to take things further. You've got alot of time to get to know each other, after all it's only been 2 1/2 weeks and that's certainly not enough time to start worrying about things.

 

Don't be so hard on yourself Derek. You always are. Listen to what Luke and Joe said. It's pretty much the advice I would have given.