Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Aww, feel better. <3

 

Best of wishes to your health!

 

So I'll be getting a new pair of glasses some time this week. It'll be the first new pair I've had in almost five years. My eyes are going to hate me.

 

Thanks guys.

Will:

 

-sigh-.

I can't seem to think of anything to write.

 

It's okay Sarah. He didn't do anything bad.

 

to be honest i wish i had more friends

i mean i know a lot of people dont get me wrong but the fact is my social life is so fractured that i always hang out with probably three or so people at any one time. For instance if im in school there are only three guys i ever really hang out with and when i go out its another three different guys and the rest i can say at worst are acquaintances...and since school at the moment is eating so much of my life i dont really get to see my outside friends and its really frustrating because to be honest even though my friends in school are raelly great and all, i dont really get along with them as well as i do with my outside friends and somehow it makes me feel like im some sort of loser...

 

Fuck, she broke up with me. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

 

Awww...

 

*sigh*
Another day to live and do the same old things.
I just want my money to come through and get me out this hole for at least a day so I can do something exciting for once, instead of in front of the computer and clean the house up.

 

I want to forget her. I want to forget this entire past year ever existed. I need it all to go away. I want all of this pain to go away, I can't handle it anymore. I'm past the breaking point now.

 

You and me both.

(in a non-sexual way of course )

 

It's tough man, .

Imo, If you do anything physical excersize, do it a bit harder. Might help!
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Edit: What a great day, until I came home. I'm seriously losing my sight on my future. I hate it. I hate how my cousins all tell me this and that, and my father doesn't seem like that, nor does my mom.... I don't know who to trust.. To top it all off, there was a girl I haven't talked to and she was dating this other person who was very jealous of me for some weird reason. So I come home and check my myspace with a comment of her phone number. Soo I'm like.

..."Hah...hah..ha...WHAT?" I'm really in disbelief.

edit2: Great, Now I saw that my friend is leaving tomorrow at 6pm sharp. Noo....

 

Ahh crap, so me and Josh ain't friends no more. He's basing his argument over the fact that I've apparently bad mouthed him and said something on the phone to him about how I'm not going to go out with him. But I don't fucking get it, if I said something like that, he usually nods and accept the fact that I'm never ever going to go out with him. I'm just not attracted to him. Sure, he's a good friend, that's about fucking it. AND on top of that, Heidi's gone and told him that Matt and I are going out which probably has shattered him into a million pieces. I don't get. I told him to leave me alone practically, but this whole business with me badmouthing him, is total bullshit. I cannot recall a conversation on the phone about anything about that and the last time I heard word from him was him commenting on the fact that Callan had kissed me and that it was an accident on my behalf with the words "that's bullshit sarah and you know that." well excuse me for telling whole of facebook Josh. Fuck you, you've really shown how much of a liar and a less of a friend you are to me. Over ten years we've been friends and now this happens. He's basing his argument on something which I swore did not happen. I'm offended and I'm disbelief that he would do this to me.

WTF?

 

I pretty much consider myself a failure right now.

 

I'm seriously considering joining the Peace Corps. I want to help people, make a difference somehow on this planet and that's a way I can. I really need to think about it. I dunno, does that make me crazy?

 

Fuck my life.

 

Hell no. In fact, if you went through with it, you would gain a helluva lot of trust from everybody here, including me.

 

Just act like I don't exist. Great.

 

Don't let it get the best of you, man. You're tougher than this.