Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thanks Sarah, but I can't do this today.

 

I don't know what is really my near-future is kinda going to bed.

I'm a tad nervous of it.

 

I hate it when Dad gets like this.
SBS dropped out and Dad chucked a full fledged skitz at the tv just because it couldn't pick up SBS for him to watch Top Gear on it. I'm afraid one day I'm either going to snap big time and attack him just because I'm so sick of his drunken antics, or it's going to be the other way around.
I feel like running away to Ravy's house in a different state and never coming back.

 

Don't.

 

Everything with her is just awesome. The best part is that none of this is a big deal. We have so much shit in common that it's become ridiculous, and I don't ever see myself letting go, at least not for a very, very long time. She's quickly become my best friend, and it's just so relieving that I finally found what I've been looking for the passed 6 years, even if I have a little over 4 years on her. I can be myself, and I'm glad a relationship hasn't changed me. I'm still the same sarcastic hot-headed asshole I've always been, I just have someone to share it with. And even though I am this way, not once have I raised my voice at her or gotten seriously upset with her to the point I couldn't look at her. Never, and I don't ever see myself ever getting mad at her.

Ridiculous. If someone told me 2 months ago that'd I'd be in this position, I'd call you fucking crazy.

 

As emo as this sounds, I feel invisible around my friends.

Like they honestly forget I am even there.

 

I know the feeling, love. I'm there as well.

 

It's pretty sad when the only thing I have to look forward to in my life is going bowling.

 

=/

 

Just know it has nothing to do with you.

 

I hate all the pain. I don't want to be hurt anymore.

 

I know...I'm sorry.

 

You don't know. :/

 

Don't try and make it better. And you should know why as well.

 

What a godsend of a day, I've never felt happier in my entire life. I could die tonight and feel complete.

 

Whatever. It has nothing to do with you so you can not talk to me about something you know nothing about. Thanks

 

What gives you the right to stick your nose where it doesn't belong?

Advice is one thing. Assumptions are another.

You just don't say that.

 

It's too stressful here in my family. I mean with all the medical problems it's more stressful and I should stay close to family but they're just so different than I am. They pick arguments over such simple little things, they blame me for their problems whether I actually have control over them or not. Soon as I get the money I want to move though I'd feel bad if I did.

 

People are so touchy.

If someone wants to empathize or apologize to someone, aren't they entitled to that?
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I hate having a cold. It's enough to make me feel like SHIT but not enough to miss school.