Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Some people are desperate. A friend of Maman parked her car in broad daylight, in a public area a couple of weeks ago, went to pick up her kid from kindergarten, and by the time she got back, about 20 minutes later, the window on the driver's side was smashed in, and her bag - with documents and all and shit - was stolen. It sounds like an unreal situation, but hell...

My experiences with workmen have not been positive. They've all been either creepy, thieves, or plain scoundrels and drunkards. Not to say that there aren't decent ones, though. Guess we just weren't lucky.

 

I dyed my hair a reddish-brown and now I'm afraid that I shouldn't have. It looks pretty good, it's just redder than I thought it would be. Plus my mom wasn't big on it.

Maybe I shoulda just left it alone. Oh well. I guess it'll grow out eventually.

 

Red is a very attractive color. To me.. Very very attractive indeed.

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It seems that I have to rethink and find myself again. I've learned somethings about my family recently, small things and it makes me feel as if I have a fate to go somewhere, to do something but the thing is I don't believe in destiny. I'm really confused. I'm losing sight of who I wan to be and who I am.

 

So, apparently I've only just found out that on my little week-long holiday thing a couple weeks back, whilst we were both completely stone-drunk, Fee and I had a 'friendship kiss'. Except it was apparently a full on 'Frenchship kiss', if you know what I mean. So to be honest, neither of us really mind, but a few people saw us. And lots of her friends seem to think I'm interested in her in that way, but not because of the kiss, just because of some general impression apparently. AND her boyfriend is also now starting to dislike me, again not because of the kiss, which he doesn't know about, but because of.....something, which neither Fee nor I can think of what it might be. I think he's just finally started to dislike the notion we're so close, and, let's face it, I AM her guy best friend, I s'pose that would make him jealous. Of what, I'm not too sure.

But that's all complete bullshit (pardon my French), because I certainly don't like Fee in that way. I'm interested in another one of my very close friends, Tarryn. Fail much?

 

Daniel: Ugh, I'm sorry hon. I hate sticky situations like that. Hopefully it will get sorted out soon. He should be able to see/understand that you guys are just friends, and nothing more than that.

And thanks, Jesse.

 

Failed. And I only failed cos some idiot was driving 30km/h over the speed limit, and I had to get out of his way. Dammit, I've been waiting for this for a year...

 

Great. I just lost my girlfriend one month before our 5th year anniversary.

I did something that was unforgivable. Lable me emo and send me 6 feet under.

 

I'm finally going to start doing what makes ME happy.

 

Thanks Arlene-dear . I went to the movies this morning with the two of them and some of the other friends (including the ones who saw Fee and I), and he was nice enough. Whether that was just because he was in company, I don't know. *shrugs*

Harlz: Ah dude, that sucks. I remember I failed my first time purely because of the fact I got a dick of a tester. Unfortunately it's not uncommon. I'm sure you'll pass when you get in next, though.

*hugs to everyone else*

 

Mmmm my tester was a miserable bastard.
Well, I'm going again next week, but everywhere except some suburb I've never been to is booked out... Oh well, I can't be unlucky twice...

 

They surrendered to your family minus your father. Obviously Frenchmen.

 

My PS3 died.

FUCK.

 

i need a haircut

 

[EDIT: g-mailed you back]

 

Well, I've learned from experience never to leave anything in the car, it never happend to my car, but it's a daily thing around here... but I'm sure most cities are like that these days.

About the workmen, yeah, that's terrible.

 

ugh....my stupid teacher yells at me to close my laptop while there are 3 other kids who have it open playing games and im here actaully doing my notebook trying to get this shit done...grr!

 

Christopher, Im so glad that everything's okay except your windows.

I'm also pretty glad that no one was hurt too. Imo, should be a sign to get a security system and a shotgun, just incase.

 

So yeah, I've had certain problems with anxiety and depression over the last year but I'm finally getting over it properly. Mentally, at least. Right now I think I'm about to vomit all of a sudden, hah. I'll go to bed in a moment.

I'm glad to be at this point finally. It's a bit of a shame though how, during that time, there were people who were fully aware (probably more aware than anyone else) and I'd have thought would have been there for me more, but they haven't really. I hope that didn't make me sound like a prick. On the other hand it's nice to have a better idea of where you stand with other people. So oh well, I guess. It's not as if nobody has done anything for me. Not at all. At the LPA alone there are definitely a couple of people who have actually done a lot for me during that time, and if any of them are reading this they probably know who they are. Thanks. And a general thank you to people who aren't knobs.

I'm so happy to be seeing the end of this year.

 

im failing Spanish and Religion
damn

 

I apologise for being a knob.

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Had a kind of mock exam today. It was truly amusing. About one period of preparing, reading the story I was to analyse, writing notes, and then ten minutes of analysis. Still, the mark wasn't bad. I'm a bit worried about my History essay tomorrow. And the fact that my ribs hurt after tae kwon do.

On the other hand, they're talking again. Thank Carlisle. I was so terrified. Every time this happens, it's the worst, it's horrible, it's absolutely heartbreaking and I'm stuck in the fucking middle and cannot do anything. I almost always end up completely hysterical.