Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Also, just to throw my 2 cents in, since I have been in this position...Dont go back out with David because of how you used to feel with him. Chances are, it wont be the same as it was before and it will be awkward...especially if you have feelings for someone else. You may love how you felt with him and loved him back then, but I wouldnt expect it to be the same now. I have gone out with a few of my ex girlfriends multiple times and it has never been as good as the first time. Its more like living in the past.

 

I thought you were dating someone and it got all sorted out?

Never mind. Helps if I read more.

 

I keep getting thoughts that I might die soon... part of me thinks I'm being paranoid but other parts of me are kind of convinced

 

I thought about it and I'm definitely not getting back together with David.

And as for Tody, he can go fuck himself. I found out alottt of things today.. I discussed it with Thomson. Tody is a fucking dick and I told him I don't want to speak with him anymore for a while until he can figure out what FUCKING DICK he is being.

How fucking dare he.. I'm furious right now.

 

Don't even think it Jesse.

 

Even though things have been completely shitty lately, I've learned to just take things as they come and not worry so much. No point in getting worked up over situations I can't control, right?

 

I'm just gonna let go.

I sent him a text saying "I don't think we should talk anymore for a while."

If he texts me back I'm not replying.. he can figure out why I don't wish to speak to him on his own. And when he finds out why and really understands it.. then we can speak again.

 

For fucks sake, who in the world with any brains what so ever gives a Uzi to an 8 year old?

http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/10/27/boy.shoots.himself.ap/index.html

Certified instructor or not, this boy's parents should have known better. The recoil on a gun like that is hard for an adult to control, but in the hands of an 8 year old kid?

Sickening.

 

Wait, I am so confused. Who was the guy that you were with, and then you broke up for a while, and then got back together with? I thought he had some Spanish sounding name like Jose or something. I'm really confused.

And from experience, I don't know what the guy did to piss you off so bad, but it's best to go to the source, not a friend/roommate. I learned that the hard way. Don't take someone else's word for certain things- you need to go to the source.

 

I have too many shit friends who take and don't give, and I always seem to have one really awkward person in my life messing me around and applying double standards to me above everyone else. Just give me a few days while I have a nervous breakdown, grow a small beard and drink and smoke myself into the gutter, I guess.

 

Actually that's what I thought and that's why I'm confused as well which is why I even said anything in the first place. lol.

 

You don't need to go to the gutter, it's smelly and stuff.



Vasiab: It seems like August - Now, Alot of people have been breaking up =\

 

I'm sorry to hear that and all, but you can't smoke, man! No seriously i mean it, that's nothing but bad for you :angry:

 

Sorry.. his nick name is Tody. I keep forgetting not many people know that. His real name is José.

And of course I asked him. It was true.

But basically I just realized that that I was really being treated like crap. He keeps screwing me over and I'm sick of it lol.

 

Oh okay.

And I'm glad you were able to figure that out for yourself so that you weren't being dragged (drug?) along anymore.

Good luck with everything.

 

I smoke because I have problems with anxiety. It calms me down, and it's not like I actually have a dependence on anything yet. Thanks though, you and Maverik.

 

Sometimes that's just the most comfortable place. (Conor Oberst is so wise)

I'm all for the growing a beard, the other stuff not so much.

 

Yeah, it is good.

I have such amazing friends.. I know this may sound stupid lol. But I got out of class and I was so sad about the whole thing.. that I didn't feel like going home. I just decided to sit in my car for 45 minutes just to think and listen to music. You know, clear my head. Thomson calls me and says, "Where are you kid?" and I'm like, "In my car right now thinking." So he gets a little worried and comes to get me.. we find out I left my car lights on. So he jumped my car battery and takes me to Applebee's. He gets me a beer and I don't get carded.. my night ended up being so much better haha. I haven't laughed like that in a while.

 

That's probably the worst of what I said, you know how bad I look with a beard.

 

Work was pretty interesting.

Last Wednesday night I cut the tip of my left pinky. It wasn't terribly bad or anything, but it bled a lot for some reason. So I used two band-aids to cover it up good. After eating, I wahed my hands and the band-aids went to junk, so I go two more. A few hours later, they fell off. So then I went and got some heavy duty ones and was fine the rest of the night.

So last night a mechanic from the line I was onthe night I cut finger starts hollerin' at me that I took all of his band-aids. At first, I thought he was just fuckin around me with me, but apparently he was pretty mad. I guess he cut his had or something and had to use duct tape because he didn't hve any band-aids in his toolbox. He claimed he had 10 of them Sunday night an I used all of them Sunday night, when I only used 4 of them last Wednesday night, almost a whole week ago.

So 10 minutes after that, I go on my break. There's a couple of other mechanics in there and right away they asked me why I took all of the other guys's band-aids saying he had bitched to them about it. They were just messing around with me, though because we were all laughin it up. Well, the guy that was originally bitchin at me comes into the cafeteria and then all hell breaks loose.

One of the other mechanics starts being a smart ass, saying the Dorito's he was eating were too hot and he needed some band-aids. Right away the guy who was originally complaining to me starts saying some shit, and then I called him a crybaby. Well, evidently he didn't like that. The other mechanic that's eating the Dorito's is still intaginizing the whole deal while me and the other guy are still going back and fourth. Eventually, he gets so mad that he wanted to fight me. He was all like, "If you don't shut the fuck up I'm gonna take you outside and beat your fucking ass." I just laughed at him, in fact we were all laughing because it was funny. After all, all of this was over band-aids that I never even took to begin with.

Seriously, I've never had someone get so pissed over something that stupid. I couldn't even get that mad about it because of how ridiculous it was.