Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

No. She had to work 7a-4p, go home and sleep and then go to her other job from 9p-5:30a. She had asked if she could borrow my iPod to occupy her time while she was working 3rd shift at her other job, so I said sure. So around 8:30p she came to my house and got it, which made my mom happy because my mom loves her. After she got out, she came over to drop it off, which was a little after 5:30a.

This sucks. She has a boyfriend of over a year. The jerk off cheated on her (had sex with another girl) and she's still with him. I've known her for 11 years now, and every guy has done something stupid to her or just treated her like crap.

 

Wow, that sounds almost exactly like the deal with me and my bestfriend. Sucks eh?

 

Legit.

She spends as much time with me as she does with her boyfriend, if not more.

 

Dot dot dot. I'm in exactly the same situation by the sounds of it.

 

The other night (Tuesday) she was bored, but we couldn't decide on what to do since we were both short on paper. She suggest that she could come over and that we could go walking.

Walking?
Walking.
Fucking walking!

I said sure. I don't really ever walk, but I enjoy her company. Before she left she said, "Thanks for making time for me." I don't get this shit, and I probably never will.

 

She sounds really confusing. I mean, she has a boyfriend, she shouldn't be giving you such mixed messages. I hope things work out for the best for you though.

 

At least he apologized.

 

One day you will. A lot.

 

By then everyone will be high on legal medication anyways, thanks Barack, I knew America would take any kind of healthcare too far!

 

Maybe it's just me making it confusing. I dunno, it's been this way for a very long time, but I really have no one to blame but myself because when she came up to me with her feelings 3 or 4 times I turned her in the other direction because I was either tied up with my ex or was afriad of what my best friend might think, since he's not particularly a fan of hers. All that was a couple of years ago, and I kick myself in the ass almost everyday. I didn't know what I was doing, and I wish what I know now I knew then.

 

Ahhh... man... some people are really childish.

 

Lack of motivation
Lack of sleep
Lack of care.

._.

 

I wish I had a time machine, so I could go back to the beginning of July and make things take a different course. I wouldn't have the regret and sadness that I am currently experiencing. I am so lonely with out him.

Not being able to talk to him is tearing me apart.

 

Yeah apparently I caught a bug that infected my throat and tightened it. I'm fine now but I wont fully recover for a few days.
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I dunno why but I've felt pretty invisible on here lately.

 

I have amazing friends.

I don't know what I'd do without them. <3

 

I finally fucking drew something.

 

We got back together.

I went out with him and a group of people.. then as I was about leave he grabs me by the arm and kisses me.

He said he was stupid.. and he wants me back, and he didn't realize what he was missing until now.

I'm uber happy. I believe everything will be okay now.

 

Why can't I just say it to her???

 

I hope it works out for you this time.


Sid: Just tell her. haha.

 

Can't. It's too tough. About a thousand complications involved.
Wow. Never thought it would be so hard.