Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I'm pretty sure I actually got billed for answering a call from Naples in Florida once, but that probably involves different conditions considering that's between two continents almost on opposite sides of the world.

 

I think I'm going to throw up. I just received an e-mail back from one of the jobs that I recently applied for and it stated that my application met the requirements but they already selected people for interviews and I'm not one of them. I really cannot stand this anymore and it is literally making me sick. My application made me a perfect candidate and yet I get fucked over yet again. All I want is an interview. Is it so fucking hard to grant me that? Just fucking interview me. I'll impress the shit out of any company. But no...not happening. What the hell do I have to do? I'd love to know. This is embarrassing and I hate it tremendously.

 

Send in your resume with a picture of Chuck Norris, with a caption that says, "Interview her or I will roundhouse kick you back into your mother's womb."

 

Damn you for making me laugh as I am crying. I needed that.

 

I tend to be pretty good at that kind of thing. Figured you'd need it.

 

Awh, cheer up, babe. All you have to do is keep your head up. They're obviously missing out on someone who could be a real asset to them, so you should view it as their loss (even though I know it'll be hard to look at it that way). Sooner or later you'll end up getting the interview you want and it'll go great and then everything will fall into place. You'll just have to tough it out a little longer, that's all.

 

God he makes me mad sometimes..

He says he needs to talk to me about something important in private, I say "Okay, can I come over tomorrow around 8:00pm so we can talk about it?", and he says, "Okay, sure."

I text him about an hour ago to say I'll be there in a few hours and he says "I have friends coming over at 7, but that's still cool."

No. It's not cool. I need to talk to you too damnit. Ahhh. How can I talk to you in private when your friends are over? *sigh* -.-

They better leave soon when I get there. If he had plans already he should have told me.

 

I am tremendously happy.

Me and Josh had some serious discussions regarding things that have always plagued our relationship, and everything was just kinda put out in the open and we talked through everything and it's so good. So good. I got everything off of my chest before it turned into an emotional breakdown. I told him how I was disappointed that we never got promise rings, and that no, that ring you bought does NOT count as one, because I have to be there when you get it, and he agreed 100%, adn we're going to look into them as soon as possible, and once he gets some money saved they WILL happen. I'm seeing his side of something, that I didn't agree with at first, but he was more open with me and laid down the REAL reason he was uncomfortable, and now I see it clearly. I saw him several times this past weekend. I was able to drive myself down to see him. I surprised him for once. He was so happy. I met some of his newer friends, and he proudly introduced me as his girlfriend-of-over-a-year. He never wanted to let me go. After all of our positive talking and figuring things out, I just want to talk to him. Never leave his side. This seriously made our relationship so much stronger, to me. I feel juvial and light like we JUST got together. I still get butterflies in my stomach when he pulls in the driveway or calls me, or i call him and hear his voice.

I am so in love with him, and in love with love itself.

This is so jumbled and random, I know, but I'm having a hard time being not stupid. I'm so happy.

 

@ Arlene —
I'm glad to hear you're happy, dear.

As for me, I'm actually pretty unhappy at the moment. I need to get some people to talk to me as well.

 

I have been involved with someone on and off since July, mostly off since September. The last few days have not been ok for us, and this morning I finally decided it was time for us to not talk, as he told me a few days ago, he doesn't feel as if he can move on if I am around.

I told him that I thought this is what is best for him, and that I was really sorry. He told me that he didn't have the heart to walk away, but I made the decision for us.

I spent a good four hours just crying, sitting at my desk.

I miss him already.

 

Fuck, I knew someone like her was too good to be true. Honestly, I'm not normally this kind of guy, but this Saturday at the clubs I'm just going to try and "get some". Fuck it. Being nice and sweet has obviously gotten me nowhere, so maybe I'll just start acting like a dickhead. Seems to work for every other guy I know.


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Glad to hear you're happy Arlene-dear.

 

Daniel, I've tried being both, and neither works for me. I really don't get it myself, and sometimes question myself about why I even try.

I'm still head-over-heals for this girl. No one around here really knows. I mean, we just went for an hour walk around town with her. It was nice because I like to spend time with her when I can, but, I dunno...it's stupid. I'm letting her borrow my iPod tomorrow night since she has to work a 3rd shift. She asked me nicely, and I really don't want to give it up because it's a $300 30GB Classic. I'm just trying to play my cards right to better my friendship with her. We've been close and we've been far apart, off and on for the last 7 years and I'm just trying to change myself so that she wants to be around me, so that I'm not pushing her away.

I'm probably not even making sense.

 

I'm sick of going back and forth. It's mentally and physically killing me. Please, make up your f***ing mind!

 

He broke up with me..

I don't wanna talk about it right now, I've explained what happened a million times to a million other people already. I'll explain it later maybe.

I just wanna go to sleep.. I'm not going to school tomorrow and I canceled hanging out with Jessica as well..

This hurts.. so much.

 

Ive never really talked to you too much, but when I say this, I mean it sincerely. Im really sorry. You dont deserve that and I hope things look up for you. You are a great person.

 

Aww Anya, that's terrible! You know the LPA is here for whenever you do want to talk.

 

I'm sorry to hear, Anya.

 

Finally something to look forward to. It just seems like my life has been going nowhere for the past 6 months. Im sick of doing the same thing over and over again. Thank god something came up for me to at least get excited about.

 

I can't believe it. Why he doesn't understand we're over?

 

Anya: I'm so so sorry to hear that. As everyone else said, once you're ready to talk, we're all here for you.

Will: I'm always here if you need to talk to sweetheart. Text me sometime.

Mike: I can understand what you mean. Have I heard about this girl? And really...just try to play it slow, see where it goes, dear. <3

And thanks Daniel and Will.