Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Teachers should stop contradicting what they, themselves said just moments before. They seem to like doing it too. It's freaking frustrating.

 

This is gonna sound so cliche it's unreal: I thought I was over her, I really don't know if I am though.

 

I hate it when he does this. He told me at the last minute that my mum is coming down today, I hope she fucking doesn't. I'm doing fine without her, and to discuss what? My future? I fucking already know what I wanna do with my future. I wish she could stick her big fat nose out of my business for at least a couple of months and go to hell while she's at it. I need to find a job quickly.

 

I feel so depressed. I burst into tears randomly. I'm too bored to do anything. I don't want to go out. I don't want to see my friends. I'm sitting at home bored in front of the computer. What the fuck is wrong with me?

 

Im sorry, I dont know what to tell you to make you feel any better

 

It's okay. It's not your fault.

 

It could be.

 

Lol. It isn't

 

Lies. All Lies

 

Oh. Shush you! It's NOT your fault.

 

I refuse to speak to, or even look at my mom. This is day 4.

 

Me too!

Why, what's wrong?

 

Fuck depression. I feel very good and so happy right now... thanks to him. I love him so much.

 

We got into an argument the other day about our finacial situation and me not liking the way she manages money. I feel like if she did it differently, we could save better. Then she didn't go food shopping this passed weekend, thinking she's going to save but when she goes this weekend she's only going to be paying double. Plus with her not going, I don't have any food to take with me to work. Then she awlays brings up how she carries me for 6 months when I couldn't pay my bills because I had surgery and couldn't work then was let go from my job, and I swear she gets off on that.

So it pissed me off, and I haven't talked to her since, and I don't intend to do so.

 

Aw man, I'm so sorry to hear that hon. That's not fair of her to use it against you that you had to depend on her for that time period...you had SURGERY, and there was nothing you could do about being laid off. That isn't fair of her. But mom's/women in general are pretty hard-headed when it comes to giving them corretions or suggestions. I've done it with my mom, and same with you it was a financial thing, but she got all stupid and pissy. *shrug* It's hard to convince them, or even to suggest something new to them.

I wouldn't let it come between you guys...you can be peeved with her, but you shouldn't hold it against her for too long. Gimme a call or something this weekend. I miss you.

 

I wish me and my parents could move out of this hick town. There is nothing here. I love the city life (Philadelphia, Atlantic City, Washington, D.C. etc.) and it bums me out knowing I'm still living in Delaware and going nowhere. My brother is so lucky he lives in a nice apartment in Virginia. If I'm ever jealous of him, this would be it.

 

You should come to Australia

 

She's right.

 

I feel like he's losing interest in me.. it's just not the same as it was in the beginning when we first started dating. I hope it'll pass..