Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

STOP FUCKING HOUNDING ME!
SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!!!

*SCREAMS*

 

Damn, I really hate being insecure.

 

Holy crap. My brother had an accident with his bike last week and he just sent me a picture of his face. It looks so bad. I really want to hug him. =/

 

Was that on a normal bike or a motor? I hope he recovers quickly anyway

 

I'm both excited and nervous about going to Hoge School monday, it's not like I'm moving to college, but it'll be quite a change.

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Wow, Marj, I hope he'll be okay soon.

 

You'll do fine.

It was a normal bike, but he got launched off of it for like 10 metres and fell flat on his face. The right side is totally scratched and swollen, he can't even open his eye.

 

Yeah, I know accidents on them can still be pretty bad, I remember when my cousin had one on hers and ended up getting a really deep cut on her leg and losing a lot of blood. Like I said I hope he gets better soon anyway.

 

Thanks Dean.

 

Thanks. He'll be alright soon, the swelling probably makes it look worse than it really is.

 

I've been better lately

 

that's awesome news! .. happy for you, man

 

thanks Mar

 

This is the last time I'll feel the pain of what used to be Us.


This is the time I write my letter.


This is the time I finally put a close.

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I've written it and sent it. I'm not expecting any reply ever, but... I wish she'll be reading it and if not, it's okay. But one thing, I know for sure.






...Is that I Finally Feel so free.

 

[begin rant]
there are two things i hate in this world... not having money and relationships. everything else that has ever gone wrong in my life doesn't even matter.
not having money to be able to go out and do something to take my mind off things sucks. im the kind of person that will drive away so i can cool off. with gas prices being 346547 dollars a gallon, i can't do it. i always have like 8 bucks or im negative twenty. it sucks.
relationships arent my thing. i dont have the personality for them. i am FUBAR, seriously (lol). when it comes to friends, i have one really really good friend and its been that way for eight years. been through so much s**t its nuts. other people, i am either nice for five min or im a dick to begin with and have to apologize.i guess i just dont care. its not the best attitude to have, but you either like me or you dont. i know i bring everything that goes wrong on myself. idc until it gets this bad, and starts to be really annoying.
then there is my gf/ex/idontevenf**king know anymore. 9months/10months/broke up and got back together so many times i cant even count. met her, after three months we were engaged. i wasnt ready but at the time i thought i was and a little bit was to spite my family cuz i knew they would hate me. then i just moved back to where i grew up a month ago to go to school and its been hell ever since. she doesnt understand i have school and work and cant come see her whenever she wants. its only an hour and a half drive and i dont care but with no time and no gas all i can do is be online or on the phone. thats not good enough for her. what really killed me was one of the times we "broke up" she went and slept with her 28year old boss (shes 21) and that absolutely killed me. i never got over it. so i went up north with some girls and got drunk......and before that i went to chicago with my first girlfriend.....so both of us aren't the greatest people, but im sick of this s***.
i know i need to change all this on my own, but i always keep wondering, how? im always good at talking, not so much doing. any responses and help would be greatly appreciated. im not and have never been one to harm myself. i dont want to, but i wont deny im depressed. i know it, other people know and see it, and its time to change.
[end rant]
i definately need to go back to therapy.

 

She hasn't replied an email.
She didn't text me anything.
She called me though, and told me that it was one of the most sincere thing she's ever read. and that she agrees with most of the things said. And she couldn't help but to say thanks.


Ah, I feel so free now!!!

 

I am the EXACT same way, to a T, so I know how you feel.

 

This fever is driving me crazy.

 

I'm so happy!! I got a new pet today! I named her Pixie!

 

AWWWWW!!! Post a pic of Pixie!!!

 

I have already in the member's thread. I can give you more pics of you want, which are a bit clearer.