Random Thoughts 18

purple is nice, but i've always wanted a green one .. too bad when i had my old one there weren't any green ones so i got the blue one

 

i like how the new colors are bright rather than pastel like they used to be

 

All I want for Christmas is my two fron- iPod Classic 120 GB

 

meh, i don't really like the classic one that much ..

am off to bed, night little ones!

 

Having not played Rock Band in a few months I felt kind of stupid standing in front of my TV with a little plastic guitar...

 

Fuck you Destiny's Child.

 

WHAT THE FUCK

The Buckeyes look PATHETIC.

 

Is she perverted like me? Would she go down on you in a theatre?

 

I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever win

 

Damn that storm did some damage last night. A shattered window.

 

Me: I spent 90 bucks for lunch today. Went to BJ's dude. Godly food and dessert!
Cousin: Ahh you got a BJ eh? hahahahaha jk.
Me: XD Hahaha GG.
Cousin: And got extra XD " Godly food"
Me: LOLOL HAHAHA.

 

I don't know what to do anymore.

 

what's wrong?

 

I feel like the black sheep in my family. My mom has been resenting me lately and my dad thinks I need some guidance in my life. I have cried so much that it's ridiculous. A job would fix a good portion of this. That's why I'm currently applying to 12 jobs at the moment. Most of them don't even match what I'm good at but maybe, just maybe, somebody could give me a fucking chance and I can learn something new. I know what I am capable of but proving that on a simple piece of paper that is my resume is rather difficult. Future employers shouldn't just judge a person by their resume. That's what interviews are for but nobody is giving me any interviews. I have had it and I feel like such a failure.

 

That means a lot. Thank you. <333

 

Hey, you're not a failure. if you were a failure you wouldn't be applying for 12 jobs right now (you would have given up and decided not to do a damn thing right now). i know it must be very hard, but i know you are going to get something soon, just try to be positive even if the situation is awful. You are going to get something good and then you're going to prove both of your parents wrong. cheer up

I know it sucks that everything is judge by their stupid resume, but that's the way it is.

 

Thank you so much. <3 I'm tired of being the one who has to have all of this heavy weight on my mind. I just wish things were different and I wish I still had my job at the state insurance department. My parents were so proud of me then and now they think less of me, which hurts deeply. I guess I just need to dry my tears, put their opinions aside and keep being persistent.