Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I broke my left pinky. It hurts so badly, that I'm on drugs 24/7. I got into a fight on saturday and was really pissed at this guy for being so provocative. He just wouldn't leave my best friend and / or my ex girlfriend alone. So I got involved. I didn't punch him, because that goes against my principles and I guess I would've ended up ruining more than I would have fixed by doing so, but I was so pumped, that I just had to get it off my chest. So I started punching random objects (hence the broken finger)...I totally lost it and went down the street shouting furiously.

Woke up with a lot of pain, because I took painkillers combined with alcohol...totally fucked me up.

Anyway:

The tendon in my finger, that makes my pinky capable of any kind of movement has torn right off, with the little piece of bone still attached to it. They're gonna have to operate and screw the bone back into it's place. I'm really scared, because they can't put me to sleep during the operation. I'll be awake...aware of what's going on...and well...I'll cry...I just know I'm going to cry...

 

Hope everything will be fine during the operation.

 

Aw, man, Seinfeld. . That sucks. All my best wishes to you for the operation.

 

Rejection does suck though, of course, if I haven't already made that clear over the course of my time here, hahaha.

 

edit: forget it, guys here don't have a clue what they are talking about.

 

nm

 

I think I missed something.

Anyway, I feel like the cowardly lion right now. I need some courage. This isn't for a guy or anything. It's in reference to getting a tattoo, lol. I'm such a baby. I somehow need to suck it up and just do it. Easier said than done.

 

I took what Johnny posted the wrong way, if that's what you mean, but we're discussing it on msn now. Good luck with the tattoo anyway, even though I don't actually have any yet myself and so I obviously don't have first-hand experience of whether it's that bad, haha.

Just to clarify, my post from yesterday wasn't because of people putting me down or anything like that. As pathetic as it might come across I just feel really shitty and inadequate right now. Thanks.
And Johnny, I'm sorry if I came off as aggressive with my post at the top of this page. Good luck. and I hope my advice helps you.

 

Thanks Dean, thanks for trying to help Derek and Louis but that wasn't the situation at all.

I already talked to her on late april/early may don't remember exactly.

 

If you can handle getting sunburn, you should probably be able to handle gettign a tattoo, at least what it feels like after it's finished.

 

Well I'm feeling much better now compared to what I was like yesterday.
I am finishing off my book (yes you heard right!! I'm writing a book!!) well, trying to today.

 

SHIT!!

Damn, Mike! I want to KNOW these things, ! Call me later or something, I want to talk it over with you!

Dean: You're an amazing person, hon. Don't think otherwise.

Johnny: It would be good to take a step to try to talk to her, rather than hoping that you'll bump into her at school. As you said, rejection DOES suck, but you'll never know if she would accept or reject you if you never took a step to talk to her. It's worth a try.

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I got a second hole pierced in my ears, finally. I didn't even flinch . I plan on getting a 3rd and 4th sometime in the near-ish future. W00t.
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Yesterday was me and Josh's 14 months. Wee.
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So, Josh is completely moved into his new appt. We were driving through Poughkeepsie (city where he lives) and he lives on Main street. As we drove down the steet, things kept getting more ghetto and more ghetto. And then suddenly there was a boarded up prison and old boarded up buildings and shit, and Josh points across the street and says, "Do you see that door between those 2 store fronts? I'll be living through there and at the top floor." I was like..."Awesome..." It was one of those deals where you wouldn't notice the door at all if you weren't looking for it. At least the place is a month to month lease so if he finds a better place he can move out asap. And eh IS a ninja, . He won't get mugged. Hopefully.

 

Maybe it's a magical building and someone has to point it out for you to see it. Like the Leaky Cauldron.

I'm sure he'll be fine though.

 

Why does it seem lately that no one cares that I'm actually happy now?

Like, it just seems now that you have to have some sort of drama to get attention around here (not LPA in specific, this is a general comment).

That's actually incredibly aggravating, because sometimes I just want people to know that I'm ok.

 

Lawl maybe. You're amusing.

 

OH MY FUCKING HELL SHUT UP BEFORE I THROW THIS DESK AT YOU YOU INSUFFERABLE TWAT

 

it's relatively nice to see scars on my arms again.

i have no other way of getting out my anger.

it's not cutting. i just scratch the hell out of my arms with my nails.

 

this is getting ridiculous and funny at the same time.