Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thanks. I still don't know what I'm gonna do...

 

My grandma is in the hospital.

Hope she'll be ok.

 

Marj said it best, it's good to get off the internet once in a while.

Whats wrong btw? I curious.

 

My thoughts go out to her.

 

I hope she'll be okay too.

 

Because I'm 5'3" and 162 pounds is vastly overweight.

My doctor wants me at 125. And while I eat healthy and don't eat junk that often (my downfall is soda, I very rarely eat fast food), I still can't do it.

So if I look at Dita von Teese and have that as my motivation, it's going to help me healthwise.

What's wrong with that.

Especially when you have a fucking horrible father who made fun of you when you were 10 years old for being a fucking fat ass, by saying that if I got any fatter he'd have to butter my legs to get me through the door. The same man who got pissed at me for not being involved in sports because he didn't want me to, because I'd "cry like a little bitch." The same man who looks at himself in the mirror, at 43 and only 140 pounds going "if God made anything sweeter he would have kept it for himself". The vanity is rampant. How else do I know any better? And with a mother who is only going to the gym to fit her wedding dress better, and a boyfriend who is only going to the gym to get into wrestling and not for his health, I apologize if my vanity makes anyone sick. It's all I know.

 

Good luck with that Rachel.

 

Whats wrong?

 

I hate everything, life's a total bitch and a completely waste of time.

fuck.

 

Dude, fucking amen to that.

 

Everyday I love you more!

 

@ Sylar and maverik68: Will explain to you some other time, guys.

@ Gitsnik: Hope she'll be ok soon.

@ Rachel: Hope you took the right desicion girl.

 

Fuck these migraines, fuck it all. I can't deal with this anymore. Constant pain is not fun.

 

I'm so happy and in love!

 

You’re my world
You’re my shelter from the rain
You’re the pills
That take away my pain
You’re the light
That helps me find my way
You’re the words when I have nothing to say.

In this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you
Still tangled up in you.

You’re the fire
That warms me when I’m cold
You’re the hand
I have to hold as I grow old
You’re the shore when I am lost at sea.
You're the only thing that I like about me.

In this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
I'm still tangled up in you.
How long has it been since this storybook life began
and I hope it never ends and goes like this forever.

In this world where nothing else is true
Here I am still tangled up in you
Up in you

I’m still tangled up in you
I’m still tangled up in you

 

Thanks Dean, Maverik and Penny

 

I just gave my cat a good smack on the behind. I haven't seen him for 20 minutes.

It fucking sucks that my cat's going to hate me, but there's no other way to fucking punish him. The God damn thing keeps trying to get into my window, and I'm tired of it, so I hit him.

I mean, it was like one of those good, solid slaps you'd give a friend if they're being an idiot. It's not like I thrashed the cat or anything.

But still. I feel bad and hate the fact that he's going to hate me because I'm the only one who punishes him.

 

awwww that's so freakin sad, man

but as much as i think that was a mean thing to do, am sure it had to be done .. though i suggest ya start kissin some ass so he forgets all bout wut ya did