Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Im ready to jump off a cliff...there's just one damn worry after the next...people are just dieing & getting terribly ill...I dunno what to do anymore first my cousin kills himself ,then my uncle dies, then the freaky family dreams(seeing dead people in dreams usually ain't good) & it looks like another uncle is gonna take off soon..I don't know whats going on with the hospital...because to us it seeems like they doing the same thing that they did when my aunt was in hospital...they continueously told us each time that something new was gone wrong with her & eventually she died of psuedemonus bacteria setting in & the docters diagnosed it as pnuemonia....my uncle in hospital was submited because he had an unstable angina attack...& his pressure has been high for over a week.. & each time some one speaks to the docters they give a new story..

 

My father's bestfriend was brutally killed.
http://www.dawn.com/2008/07/22/local1.htm

He was just so nice.

 

i'm sorry to hear that

 

Me too.


He was such a nice guy yknow? He helped my sister with her visa transaction and stuff. He was one guy who had a lot of influence and authority but never showed it.
Rest in peace.

 

Effing hell? Tortured, strangled and shot three times at close range?


Terrorism.

 

I feel so inadequate, and a bad boyfriend.

 

I might be falling for one of my best friends and she thinks of me as a brother. Ugh.

 

ouch.. that doesn't work 90% of the time, lucky for you at least there is a 10% chance.

But who knows. every case is different, is she single??

 

Yeah shes single. We get along great and everything we talked about going out before but she said she thought it would be weird. I dont think it would be because we connect so well and I havent honestly been as happy as I am when Im with her since I first started going out with my last girlfriend.

 

alright, good luck!!

 

Problem is...I dont even know if I should or not because I dont want to make us hanging out weird now but there is a large part of me that doesnt think its going to go away and it wouldnt really be fair to her to keep it in the back of my head forever. Decisions...Decisions...

 

If you get the chance to go out with her, grab it with both hands.

 

Well if it doesn't stop then you have to do something about it, keeping things inside is hell, you have to really thinks through, most of the time when you have a friendship and then one of them talks about a relationship
things really do tend to become weird, that's the risk you have to go through. You can risk the friendship (which is great right now) and get the win (being with her) or you can lose the fight (losing all you had with her).

I have learned that even when you lose, you have to be happy that at least you made all you could, and you told her how you felt, its way better thsn to keep your mouth shut and live in hell for god knows how long.

If she says yes, then you are one lucky SOB and you're gonna be happy for a long time

If she's one of this rare cases, when you tell her everything and she's still nice with you and still wants to be friends with you like you were before you said anything. then you are very lucky.

 

Last time we talked about it, it kind of came out of nowhere and we hadnt really hung out alone. Now though, we have gone to a movie alone and gone out to eat a few times alone and every time has been great and I know shes had fun too. I just hate not knowing how she really feels because the uncertainty makes this decision 100x harder.

 

I went out shopping to cheer myself up and bought things.

It's obvious that I was crying since my eyes are moist and people give me random glances. I come back now. And I can't believe it. The fact that he is dead. The fact that he was so brutally killed. Murdered.

 

<3


Thanks love.

 

@ Ataka