Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Mike: Thanks dear. Is everything going okay with you? I assume just bullshit tired/busy work stuff?

 

hey, did you ever talked to josh about the lipstick and stuff?

 

Wasn't lipstick, but along the same lines. I didn't. I would rather talk about it in person, if I do even end up bringing it up. I don't like to start things on the phone, people's actions say a lot more than words in situations like that. But thank you for your concern.

I'm still feeling a bit blegh about it, but I think I've decided not to say anything, and just trust him. We had a fight a few weeks ago and things he did told me that he's genuine. So, I just hope that me trusting him is the right decision. I do know he's an amazing guy, and I don't think he's pulling me along, it's just those little things that make you doubt, ya know?

 

Yeah i completely understand, i don't think he's cheating on you but if he is then you are gonna know sooner or later. And out of all the things you have said around here i think he loves you for real and there's nothing for you to worry about.

 

I really appreciate the support and concern. It means a lot.

 

Yea, I s'pose so. Just certain people at work pissing me off. I'm new there, so I'm not gonna know how to do everything right away. Most people say I'm doing great and then others are just like, bleh. They come over and tell me how to do my job differently than what my trainer tells me. Highly annoying.

 

Arlene Just remember, if you dont have trust, you don't have anything. Confront him if you want.

 

You seem like you want to know, so I would confront him about it. If you do, just be calm about it. Don't lash out because he'll get the wrong idea. Just ask him where the stuff came from if you plan on asking him.

 

Last night we were feeding the duckies, then a group of little boys came, they looked like 10 years old. They threw rocks at us and the duckies. Maxime told them to go away and they yelled obscene things at us.

I see this more and more and I wonder where is all the respect? What could we and the ducks have possibly done to deserve this?

I'm telling you, 2 months of holidays is WAY too much. Kids go wandering on the street, they have no morals anymore. And nowadays, moms have to work fulltime as well to keep the money coming, these kids will be on the street all day long, they're bound to meet the wrong persons.

It pisses me off so much, if you're frustrated you don't take it out on others, and NOT on harmless animals. I sometimes wonder if I even want to raise a kid later in this fucked up world. 20 Years ago it wasn't like this, I blame the fact that moms have to work too now to keep going.

 

I know exactly how you feel. I don't even want kids, and these are one of the reasons. Hell, just yesterday (or the day before, I can't remember), a 13 year old and his 15 year old friend robbed some dude at gunpoint on the south side of my town, which is 5 minutes or so from me. After they took his wallet and cell phone, the 13 year old boy (who had the gun) accidently shot him in the leg.

Now the 13 year old is in juvi, and the 15 year old is being charged as an adult.

 

I feel like mum hates me.

 

Aisha and Mike: I want to know, but I also want to avoid confrontation. For now, I'm just gunna wait it out and see what happens, if there's something else like that I'm going to say something. The reason that I'm holding back and trying my hardest to believe he's genuine is because when we had the fight a few weeks ago he was crying, (I made JOSH cry; the only time i've seen him cry was a few tears when telling me about his only other serious girlfriend died and when he found out his brother, who was like his dad, had a tumor) and he said to me, "Why would I ruin the one good thing I have going on in my life?...I feel like you don't know how much I love you...I try so hard to work my schedule around you and to see you as much as possible but I feel like you just have no idea...My friends told me not to date someone your age, that you wouldn't know how to love..." (the last one kinda made me like, 'hey' but ya know) Those aer the thigns i'm trying to think about. I'm trying SO hard not to over analyze things. I just need to think of these moments in my head and maybe it will be a little easier.

Man, now I just sound like a baby. Sorry guys.

Penny: She doesn't hate you. Parents and teenagers always fight. (I assume you're a teenager)


Oh oh oh! Happy thing! Josh's brother is finally out of the ICU and into a normal hospital room after 9 weeks of surgery and fighting infections with a down immune system! Yay!


Mike: I'm sorry about your job. You'll catch on soon and it will be okay. But at least you have a few people encouraging you there. Hang in there dear.

 

I love my band so much. In a time when a very large number of my friends are moving away for university and other things, they've given me a lifeline and let me fulfill my dream of being in a band. The feeling is increadible when I listen to our stuff (albeit shitty recordings) on my ipod or on my computer because I feel very strongly about the music I enjoy and I can honestly say that I'm very proud of everything we've done so far. I can't wait for what the future holds for this band. We've been through alot of turmoil in the past but now it just seems like things are looking up. I just hope that in years to come, many people will know the band The Meths.

 

I swear to God, I don't know why anyone would want David Cameron as prime minister. Least of all people who didn't like Tony Blair. Fucking hell.

 

i hate feeling like this

 

How is it possible to feel so strongly about someone you've never met face-to-face? :/

 

you mean like a person you have seen out there like at a school or something? or just some weird celebrity type person?

 

No, like this girl that I've been talking to for 2+ years online. I've never met her, but she's like one of the most amazing people ever. And all of a sudden, she stopped talking to me, and I'm kinda worried about her, because she's had quite a few bad relationships, and I really, really miss her.

 

Boy do I know that feeling. Except in my case I was the one who fucked things up between us lol. Thankfully we're fantastic now. I think you know her too.


Anyway, I hope things get better with your girl. I'm sure there's a perfectly rational explanation for it (like her internet crapping itself).

 

That's a hard question to answer, I don't know how but I know you can feel that way, it's strange...