Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Our audition got rejected.
Man, I don't know, my friends are all incredibly musically talented, two of them have even been accepted into the Conservatorium of Music already (at 16 years of age, that's one hell of an achievement)

Buut me and Seb can't even pull off an audition for one little school show.
My self esteem is currently so low I keep treading on it by accident...

 

Where did all the sunshine in my life go and why can't I seem to find it? When is it going to be my time?

 

Awe I'm sorry to hear, but remember what we talked about the other day. It'll work out. I know it's frusterating, but you can't really blame anyone (not saying you are), it's just the way shit goes sometimes. If you wanna talk I'll be on sometime later, or if I'm not on you could call, but after 6 I just got home like an hour ago and I'm about to go to bed so, yea.

Hang in there.

 

I know, it's just so freaking frustrating. I'm annoyed, but not at him because that's not fair. He's just as pissed of with it as I am, I just wish he could do SOMETHING to get a day. Rawr. And I might do that. Thank you hun.

 

I think the best thing you can do is to just stay optimistic. Getting yourself all worked up over it isn't going to make things better, you know? You've got to stay positive and eventually things will be OK again, especially considering his company's got to be smart enough to know that it has to replace those people.

Just keep in mind that the next time you see him will be so much better just because you haven't seen him in so long.

 

Thanks, Dean.

Will: Yeah, I guess. I know I'll make it through just fine but I just feel so...blargh! I'm outta school and I have nothing to do til the weekend (work) and I hate it. I mean, a few weeks ago I had to go 3 weeks without seeing him, but that was planned and I knew that it was going to be 3 weeks (I went away and then he went away with the week after.) This time, he was supposed to stop by and see me at work last Sunday, but he couldn't because he got called in to work, and I was supposed to see him yesterday, he was going to have to work but he had to take the day off because he felt awful. *sigh* I know it will be better when I see him again, I'm just sad. I miss him. Plus he told me that on our one year anniversary he doesn't think he'll be able to see me because of what? Oh right, work. Damn responsibilities.
But thank you, Will. You're a dear.

 

I really wish I could stop feeling like this. It's getting fucking old.

 

what's wrong?

 

A ton of stuff (that would take too long to explain) is starting to wear on me.

I appreciate the concern, though.

 

Feel better.

 

Thanks. =)

 

No problem man, if you ever need to talk about something or need an opinion, i'll love to talk about it.



man, i have to wait until august to see her. I can't fucking wait.

 

So he came back I saw him. The feelings are gone. Which is a good thing. We hung out for the whole night with his friends he acted like we were dating. It bothered me...and tonight he opens for his friend band and there's a party afterwards he wants me to go. I dont think I want to because I would have to spend the night and he's gunna drink and be all over me i dont want that.

 

I have to let this out...

IRON MAIDEN IS FUCKING AMAZING LIVE!!!

 

I love my band!

 

NO SHIT MAN!

lol

 

My parents piss me off! What's wrong with me staying over at my friend's place for one fucking night?! It's not like we're gonna smoke pot and get wasted!!! What is the big deal!

 

I don't know how to break this to her, but for all the great things about her she's probably the biggest drama queen ever at times, and I've come to realise that, whether this is shallow or not, it takes a lot away from how much I like her when she's like this.

And pretty much all of the people I'd usually talk to in this situation are on holiday or something along those lines. Fantastic.