Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I don't know why it seems so goddamn impossible to find a girl around here who cares more about other people than themselves. I would really like to just find a down-to-earth girl who's interested in the same things as me but it's fucking impossible. These girls are just downright self-absorbed and quite frankly, they're all whores.

I don't want a whore right now.

 

I miss him a lot right now. I can't erase the image of those big brown eyes from my mind.

*sigh*

 

Oh my God. Fuck that shit. I swear.

 

well, that explains alot.

 

Whatever. Like Anya just had to post that and you got on and conveniently posted right after. How did you think I would really react? Come on.

Have fun in Florida, the both of you.

I'm expecting this to get deleted. I'll wait.

 

I can't do anything right..

T_T

 

You'll be fine, Everybody makes mistakes. Plus its your Grandma.

 

Motherfucker, please, if you can't take the fact that I'm not "cool", then just get out of my life. Just because I'm not acting all ghetto and shit doesn't mean I didn't actually have fun hanging out with you.

Jesus Christ my friends are all assholes.

 

Woah now.

Why in the hell is there a fight over this?

I don't see the problem with seeing my best friend. We have every right to hang out, so if you have a problem with it then just shut up. Honestly. I would say something to you Andrea, but it's not my business what's between you and Derek. I do think it's ridiculous you have to get mad over that though. I didn't post that to get on your nerves, I posted that simply just because I was excited.

And as for Casey.. you don't even know what you're talking about dude lol. Assume whatever the fuck you want.

 

Exactly, it's not your business, so I would appreciate it if you don't "say something" to me because you don't know as much as you think you do from Derek.

I am done with this whole thing. I reacted in a way that was natural to how I was feeling. Surely if you were in my situation, you would have done the same thing. But then again, maybe not. We're all clearly different.

 

Yes, I know, that's what I said. I'm not going to, trust me.

And no I wouldn't act like that if I were you lol.

I see nothing wrong with what Derek did, but then again that's my opinion but whatever.

 

By all means, I actually do mean this and you can take it however which way you want, in some strange way I am glad you two are meeting, since you two have wanted that for so long...

But I'm hurt, angry, upset and mad. Yes I know I am the one who broke it off with Derek. I've been told that plenty of times so I will always remember for the rest of my life, but when I read those posts in Random Thoughts it just blindsided me and angered me because I felt like I was being...I don't know...I can't find the right word and I'm completely tired.

You're a good person but I cannot stand certain things right now. I just don't want stuff rubbed in my face in the near future...*shrugs*

 

Well I know for a fact that we didn't mean to post that to piss you off. And even if you don't believe me, I really don't think Derek meant it that way especially.

And you don't have to be upset anyway. Derek does know this, I've already told him there probably isn't a chance we'll be dating. I value our friendship quite a lot, and definitely don't want to ruin that. I mean, no offense, but it definitely ruined yours. And I'm not going to have that, no way. We're too far away for a relationship honestly.

I didn't mean for it to seem like I was rubbing anything your face, but if seemed that way I'm sorry. I would never do that to anyone.

 

I believe you.

Yeah it ruined ours, something that I wish wouldn't have happened, but a breaking point on my end was reached.

Your post didn't really seem it but when Derek posted right after, that's when it seemed like it was being rubbed in my face. But I'm not going to continue this any further right now. I've calmed down quite a bit and I really need some sleep. Sorry.

 

Okay then.

Night.

 

i've always been the blackhorse of this board, like Jawknee and Franny before me. I'm not going to express what I think, because apparently what I think isn't right, even if it all kinda does connect. But, I'll drop it in the interest of not anyone else, but my own. I don't like my personal business getting out on the board, just like alot of others don't like it either.

 

I'm going to assume we're in the same boat on what we're thinking about the situation at large. I mean, for the sake of not causing some huge, immature war-of-words, I'm going to keep my thoughts to myself.

 

Why the fuck am I so intimidated by this girl who Maxime hasn't seen in over a year? We're together for almost 3 years now and I trust him, it's just that she's absolutely gorgeous and now they're messaging all the time and they're gonna have a drink somewhere. When? No idea. I wish they would decide when, then it's been done and over with. I hate this. I don't want to be this kind of girlfriend, I despise girlfriends who forbid them boyfriends to go out with other girls. What do I have to do to make this feeling go away? =/