Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Awwww, I'm sorry to hear that!
I really, really hope you'll get better very soon.
Here's a hug, it comes with special Marj cuddles!

 

A couple nights ago one of my buddies had a bloody nose which could've killed him had he not fallen asleep sitting up. The doctors said if he would've fallen asleep in bed he would've never felt the blood pouring into his lungs. The best part about it is that he was laughing and joking about it. "What's more metal than a bassist who almost choked on his own blood?" Seriously. It was scary for him to even talk about it, though.

 

My Aunt Cheryl was told to get her affairs in order, as she's supposedly on her deathbed from cancer. She's had it on her breats, in her ovaries, and on her brain. She lost a baby due to cervical cancer, and she's engaged. We don't even know if she'll live long enough to see her own fucking wedding.

I'm sick of life being so fucking unfair to her. Her ex left her after she lost the baby and got married right after, and Cheryl has to constantly get chemo and radiation just to find out she has fucking cancer again.

What the fuck.

 

Damn...Thats really bad to hear, I hope for the best for Her and your family.

My Grandma has cancer as well, I understand somewhat but, its nowhere near as Devastating as that, So young also.

 

NononoNOOOOOO. Not again. We're moving, and just as we find out that we've got this house, I find out that she really did like me. And I can't do anything, because then it'll be like 2 weeks, and then I'll probably never see her again.

 

;_; It's annoying how much her parents refuse to acknowledge my existence of being her boyfriend.

 

Keeping 6 years of intense emotions bottled up inside wasn't one of the smartest things I've ever done. It doesn't pay to try and keep a brave face when you don't have one, and being able to let everything out is only a good thing in the long run. Just talking to someone who will really listen helps a ton. I'm glad I stopped being so stubborn and recognized that it doesn't make me weak to show when something hurts, and that there are people who do genuinely care.

 

I had a nosebleed in my sleep once, but I sleep on my side/stomach. The blood actually drained into my tear ducts, so when I woke up there was literally blood coming out of my eyes. That was probably the most freaked out I've ever been.

 

That's really scary. I'd have probably had a panic attack or something.

 

I cannot believe what the stalker (the teacher) did today.

We had field day in school and the last hour was for chilling outside. My friends and I chose to sit on this bench in the shade, under a tree. Thing is, he followed me out there.

The thing that freaked me out the most, is that he started to watch me behind a tree and TOOK A FUCKING SNAPSHOT OF ME ON HIS PHONE. (I saw him do that) Then he honestly sat there for the remainder of the time watching me. Uh, Mr. Creepy and perverted? Yes. Like...what kind person does that?!

I mean, other than the fact he was actually hiding behind a tree...
He just made it 100x more obvious...

 

I'm lucky to be alive. I had overdosed on Tylenol and Ibprofuen the other week, and my dad never took me to the hospital. I found out today (well.. yesterday -friday) that because of the amount I took, I probably should have died. The Doctor said that when taking too much Tylenol, the process is irreversible. There's nothing that can be done so you pretty much just sit there and watch the person die.
Is something out there in life trying to tell me that life does get better?
I'm just so lost right now because my Mom has taken me out of school in my home town and she's brought me an hour away to her house. There's two weeks left of school for us, but I'm told I don't have to go back because of the medical and psychiatric reasons. That's cool cause it means I don't have to take the exams, but I feel so lost. I feel as if there's nothing here for me at her house. Yeah, it's a bigger city, I'm now with my mom for the first time in over 13 years, and there are a lot of opportunities for things... But I miss home. I don't miss my dad, but I DO miss my brother.
I get to go back home on Tuesday however to clear out my locker, to grab some more clothes, and to say good-bye to a few friends.

I don't know how to do this. I don't want to do this. I want to stay home. but because I can't deal with the stress too well, it's probably better if I don't. but I can't imagine being away from the people I love.
I feel so fucking lost!
So.. I'm wiping away another tear, but I really don't know what to do right now. Sure, take one step at a time.. But seriously?! How can I just tell those that I love and care for goodbye? I can't imagine leaving them or anything. I promised him I wouldn't go.. but here I am.. leaving.

What am I supposed to be doing? I lived through last week. Yet I'm still cutting. I'm now in a better home, but I want out. I'm so lost and confused with all of this.. T_T

 

i dont understand a couple of months ago 2 girls told me tht this guy liked me. so i asked one of them (katlyn) to ask him out for me cause im a chicken hehe. well she does and he said no. WTF!!! did she just tell me tht he liked me?? wtf is going on. so i texted the guy i like and told him hey uhh yea danielle told me tht you did like me and now ur saying no...? ( i didnt mention anything about katlyn tho) and he said dainelle asked me and i said yeah sure idk. i told him well she never told me the idk part. he said well shes stupid dont blame her tho. we talked things out and everything is ok. well just a couple of days ago (he still thinks i like him which i dont) it was the last day of school, in the morning he waved at me and said hi and i waved back. after school he clearly looks at me and walks right passed me. didnt say bye or anything. im like ok thts a great friend you are.

 

the waiting remains

 

you're not

and what happened?

 

Hey Louis,
I hope things get better.
And even though she's not that much of a 'touchy' person, don't let it bring you too far down. Just keep showing the affection for her that you have, and maybe she'll loosen up and show you some back.

Best of luck.

 

FUCK

 

I concur. -_-

 

I'll second the concur.