Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I'm just so sick of everything, I've been having very bad thoughts lately, but the more days go by the more good those thoughts seem.

 

Dude... TimX... just. and

ex amino,
Dee

 

Thanks, hun.

 

Lemme hug you too Timmehboy, it's the special Marj hug too!

 

Somewhere, there is a universe where your brother is a straight edge vegan who lives in a cave and used only twigs and berries to live.

 

Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

And congrats on your anniversary.

@Dean: Does this have something to do with multi-verse theory?

 

I dont know but I'm nto intoxiacts right now if thats what you mean.

 

*Rubs eyes*

So, new news on Josh's brother. He's suffering short term memory loss, for example, he didn't remember that Josh had visited him yesterday. Also, his right leg is paralyzed. The doctor's don't think its temporary.

This is just so ridiculous. Noone deserves any of this.

 

There have been times when I have sat here, alone and in the dark, contemplating life, when I will have the sudden realization that things could be much worse than not having a job, not having a friend nearby when I need one, not having a girl by my side. Arlene, no one deserves what he is going through, and I hope all ends up OK in the end. It really, truly makes me appreciate life a little more.

 

I have come to realize that being myslef is whats most important in life. This is not to say that I was trying to be someone Im not but Ive realized that I dont want to spend my life doing anything I dont want to do. This means working meaningless jobs where I get treated like shit just so I can live in a big house. I dont need a big house to be happy. As long as I can live, enjoy myself, have a family, and manage to keep a stable income Im just fine. I think people put way too much emphasis on going to college to get a degree so that they can work at some paper pushing office the rest of their life and never feel like they REALLY accomplished anything. Happiness should come before success.

 

Doesn't anyone understand I need to get shit done? I have papers to write for English and a art project to be doing,

I'm sick of being everyone's errand boy. Especially for stupid shit.

 

I hate making lifestyle choices.

 

I can't believe they did this to me again. Seriously.

Fuck.

 

Don't you just hate it when you want to say something but you can't because you don't want to stoop down to that person's level? Good grief. It's fucking pathetic.

 

today is the first day of the rest of my life. i'm officially on probation, and somehow, despite me having to give money to someone else and waste gas traveling to a different town every week, i'm so glad all these court dates and deals with district attorneys and lawyers is over with.

finally, hopefully.. this will keep me out of trouble for good, and i can get my life back on track. maybe i'll finally regain the time i spent being out of control last summer and put it to good use, like college.

 

Will, thank you. I really appreciate it.

I'm just so afraid for him. Plus they said it was a "rare" type of a tumor, and it's like, well what the hell is the supposed to mean? And Josh is torn up about it and I'm so worried about him, he's barely eating and whatnot. He's currently in the anger stage of dealing with the situation, and that sucks. Just hoping for the best.

But thank you. Really.

 

I know this seems very pointless, but theres always so much truth to it; and theres a gushing waterfall of it.

I hate how my mom tells me to do something against my wishes. I know it seems insignificant but to me, It's like the only thing I can keep and control what I do to it. She told me to cut my hair and I said no. I went and rented a Tux for Prom. She's taking me there and as I went to work today, she noticed I haven't cut my hair yet. Well duh. I told her I didn't want to cut my hair until AFTER prom, she got so pissed at not cutting my hair? Hm... I do hate how all my aunties and uncles want me to be this fake person who looks similar to every damn bastard in this world. It makes me so frustrated and reminds me why I do hate people and just about everyone. Why can't they just let me pick what I want to be? It's not like I can tell them "Oh, your car looks grotesque, you should get a new paint-job!" And expect them to really change the color, yet, they expect me to follow each damn letter of their saying so damn close. It's hella annoying.
So my Mother won't take me to prom just because I didn't cut my hair? I Spent $163 on ticket per person. There's no way in FUCKING FROZEN HELL that I'll let anything like a haircut just throw away my investment. Why doesn't anyone damn listen to me? Not my parents, not my aunties and uncles, and not my grandparents. Gr, It's fucking annoying. I know my friends listen but their response is as good as living in a cookie-cut world. I probably do regret thinking of all these terrible things tomarrow or after, but right now, I'm as happy as a rock inside an active volcano. >: (

Yeah, There's more people on here that have real problems, but I just needed somewhere to rant out my hatred and misery.

 

Oh, my God. I actually had tears in my eyes as I was reading the last handful of chapters of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I couldn't stop reading; I think I read for almost eight hours straight. It's just... amazing that an author gripped me that tightly. I didn't want to let go. I don't want to let go. As sad as it sounds, I felt right at home inside the pages of those books. I've never felt that way before; I'll never feel that way again.