Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Thanks.

 

fuck yes, i explained everything to her friend, hopefully she can explained it all to her and everything will be all right.

i'm still scared and nervous of her reaction, hopefully she gets convince that I never did anything.

 

I wish I could get over you
I wish I couldn't feel for you anymore
But I can't help it
So stop putting me through hell.

 

Okay, no matter what I do, I can't convince my parents that the image that I'm aiming for is for me and me alone. It's not against them, it's not for them. It's not for my so called friends, and it's not against them either. It's for me. This is driving me crazy. I'm not going to get into the whole story now, because I'm tired, but it's really starting to get to me that it's obvious that there are more reasons other than "it doesn't look good on you", and they won't admit it.

 

still waiting for her opinion, i'm going to die.

hopefully i can know on monday.

 

Ugh, what did they say this time? I'm sorry they're being suck jerks to you. Anyway, you can PM me, or I'll be on MSN later tonight, I have ballet for hours on end today. <3

Oh, Louis. I'm not exactly sure what's wrong, I'm guessing that you're in a relationship that's killing you? Anyway, you just gotta be strong and do what you have to do for yourself. You can't force unhappiness on yourself to try and accomodate someone else.

 

Eh. Life sucks. Don't want to deal with it. Really don't want to. But I guess I have to.

 

Hang in there dude.

Same goes for you too, Louis.

 

I'm not seeing Josh today, and that makes me feel stupidly sad. I hate that he has to work today. Sunday is his only day off, ever, and he has to fill in for his boss. That means he has to work 13 straight days without a break, well, besides the one day that he had to have an operation on his throat, which isn't much of a day off. He just had that done, on Thursday, and I wish I could have been around for him, because I knew he was/is in pain. So I especially want to see him because he had that done and he was in pain. This sucks. I miss him so much.

Only 7 more days til I get to see him. *sigh*. I hate that he's an hour away.

 

i want monday to come already!!!!

 

When you start driving, and hour is a pretty short time with an iPod in the car.

 

I'm sorry to hear that. Hope those seven days go by quickly for you.

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I need to stop getting so worked up over stupid shit. I'm tired of being stressed out all the time.

 

Thank you hun.

And I know what you mean on that front. It's no fun. Just try and relax. Haha, as I just posted in RT, if you want a song that will definitely relax you, listen to "Aqueous Transmission" by Incubus. Whenever I hear it I just totally zone. It's good. Anyway, I'm always around if you need to talk.

 

Days like today remind me that she is indeed still my best friend.

 

Days like today remind me that i hate life

 

How'd things go with that girl? Cleared things up, or not..?

 

today she told her friend to told me that it was okay, to forget about the whole thing.

but idk man i keep feeling like i shouldn't had tried to talk to her, i know she won't be with me.

i dont know what i do even try.


edit: at least she doesn't think i'm a freak.

 

Hey the fact that she actually asked her friend to tell you it's ok is a good sign.
She could've just left it, not asked the friend to say anything.

Chin up bro.

 

haha she said that because, last week i talked to her friend and told her everything just to clear that up.

and i'm never gonna know if Monica said that just to forget about the whole thing or because she really meant it.