Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

You're fickle, you're a liar, and a sycophant.

 

Her boyfriend told her she doesn't deserve a present for their six month anniversary? The fuck, dump him already, he's an unsupportive ass.

And I'm not just saying that out of self interest, either.

 

I mean, a gift isn't necessary, but really, if he says "You don't need it" and she was hoping for one, then I agree. Screw him. Plus, he just sounds like a douche after what you've previously told me about him. *sigh*

Dean: Ugh, if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here. <3

 

The most disconcerting thing about these headaches is that they're usually a stabbing pain centered on one spot (usually the back of my head). Couple this with my inability to eat and sleep like normal people, and now it's really starting to worry me.

 

I have the exactly same kind of headache. It usually occurs due to lack of sleep and when I don't wear my glasses.

 

So, she tells me she's in love with me, then she gets herself a boyfriend...who she's apparently liked for a while, but never told me about. Okay, I don't like her like that...I think, but still...it's...ugh, I dunno.

Conclusion: Girls are so confusing. -,-

 

Yeah, there's more too, I'll tell you next time you get online. It wasn't even "you don't need it" it was "you don't deserve it". Thanks love

I concur. I know I haven't been here for a week, but yeah, she's even weirding me out

 

You'll get no argument from me on that.

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Fuck, I hate insomnia.

 

That's not right..

Ack, when are we going to talk?! I'm getting up around 9 in the morning, so that's 11 pm there..damn, kinda late. *cries* I miss you hun!!! <333

Tim: I'm sorry hun. <3

 

and now the only pure thing in my fucking world is wearing your disease

 

It's fucking weird...you guys realize that ever since I told you all about my..."secret", I haven't really gotten the urge to go upstairs on an alone day and dress up like I used to. Only thing I don't know is whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. My self-confidence is really the same as it was when I told you all in the first place, and I still don't really feel sexy enough. So...i'm kind of pleased and worried at the same time, you know?

 

Well, you still feel the same so maybe I think that you've realized that dressing up isnt really necessary. I think its a good thing.

Isnt there some device so you can brainwash your ex so that she'll love me again? No?

 

This is just frustrating... some people just make me sick. To think I once called them friends. It's like that whole experience wasn't even real. What a fucking cunt.

I'm getting sick of this high-school type drama... I'm so over that shit.

 

Today was great. XD

My last performance, which is a big load off of my shoulders, I saw Josh, first snow of the season! A good day!

I just wish, that, I could live my life how I want to. To live with Josh, and be happy with him. To be DONE with school, and just, live my life how I want to. Not how people want me to. *sigh* I just feel so trapped in my life, and if you think about it, I really am.

But I guess, I have to go through this, and I will make it through. I just need to take what I can get, see Josh at any opportunity, and maybe even start to involve my parents so I don't have to lie to them so much. I hate lying to them, but they don't understand. But weirdly enough, when I said to mom that Josh was giving me a ride home today, they didn't flip out. So maybe...just maybe they'll be okay with the idea that maybe I can see him? *sigh*

A side note: I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. So much. 5 months yesterday. So amazing. I've never, before in my life, even almost felt any of the feelings that I'm experiencing now. I can't even put it into words. You're perect, so perfect for me. And I can't even put it into words...ack!

Man, end ramble.

 

Wow! That must be Awesome for you!

Good on you. Don't worry about it, you'll be out of school when you need to, and then you can spend as much time with him as you want. Far out, this just sounds so fantastic that you love him so much!

Your parents will soon understand that too. They'll realise how much you love him, and hopefully they'll accept it.

 

*sigh* God I just wanna hold her...

 

I'm so insecure it is terrible.

 

Wow, I really just got the worst pit in my stomach ever.

 

i just want to have a girlfriend, is that so hard to ask? *sighs*

 

Apparently it is...