Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

The thing I want to let out is that HOLY CRAP THIS THREAD EXPLODED.

 

I know, it's like......POOF!

At least it's being used for what it was designed for.

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On a serious note, fuck, she told me she cut herself the other night. Normally I'd regard this kind of shit as attention seeking, but she's really scaring me. After she downed almost a whole pack of Panadol, and now this, I'm worried. Plus her boyfriend's being an unsupportive fuck, as per usual. I really hope she doesn't take things further....I mean, she's told me (repeatedy) how much she appreciates me always being there for her, but I don't know if that's going to be enough.

 

She's been giving me a lot of signs she's attracted to me. She's consistently been calling things I've done or said "cute," and she's given me free hot chocolates from her shop for helping her with her math studies, which she invited me up to help her with, when she could've gotten in trouble for doing so. She claimed we were "really good friends," too, and told me she hopes I fail all my classes so I have to stay at my local campus, even though she was joking. Then she texted me, telling me she felt like she didn't have any friends and no one liked her, and I told her everyone liked her, including "some dude named [omitted]," which is her boyfriend. She shrugged off my comment about her boyfriend liking her (who she's been with for over a year, I think) and we ended up having a long conversation about different things. It's so weird. Either she's just that open, or she's a little attracted to me, but can't really do anything about it.

 

Why am I flirting with a taken man when I am taken?

Fuck.

 

I might be able to get out of my School Certificate exam for English to go to the funeral...

My parents aren't keen on the idea, but I really do wanna be there for my mate.

I'm not sure what to do...

 

You should probably go to your friend's funeral. That's the route I'd take, anyway. You can always take the exam another time; you can't go to your friend's funeral another time.

 

It's the school certificate though, it's not just any exam.

Not that it makes much difference to me, but to the school and to my parents it makes a big difference.

 

But still they should respect the fact that the funeral is your last chance to say goodbye to your friend

 

It's not my friend, sorry for wording that badly.

It's actually my best mates father who's just passed away.
I knew his father really well, I liked him and I've known him for years, so I do want to say goodbye to him as well.

 

Damn it that is a tough one..

So what does the school certificate do for you?

Can you postpone it in any way?

 

I think it's the same as your VCD or something? I forget what yours is called.

I have to wait until tomorrow to get a call back and find out what the school has to say.

I'm gonna go if they say it's ok.

 

Yeah mines called VCE. You almost got it.

Good on ya!
Wishing you luck, man!

 

This girl is the hardest girl I've ever had to read body language from. I'm so sure she doesn't know what she wants... That or she wants attention off as many guys as possible.

 

I was driving home from my girlfriend's around 12 and her street is very dark. So I almost hit this guy, he looked like a hobo, it was actually pretty scary. Then the rest of the way home I kept thinking someone was in my car since I never locked it while I was in her house, and I heard this noise. It turns out I was just scaring myself, but still, that was kind of creepy. Lol.

 

Wow, when I was out that one girl sent me a messaging saying "hi, how's it going".

What kind of person won't even look at you and walked away from a conversation mid sentence because you are there, then casually says "hi, how's it going" after?

 

I'm sorry, but I have to get this off my chest. It will surely be passed up for the next confession, but at least I will have gotten this out of my mind.

I've given almost 5 years of my (admittedly online) life to this forum, trying to help with whatever I can and trying to help other people with their problems and introducing them to things above and beyond Linkin Park. I'll admit to being a huge asshole in the beginning of my tenure here, but I like to think since my banning a few years ago and the debacle surrounding that I've grown and matured into a well-liked, respectful, intelligent and contributing member to this forum. I like to think that I had a part in the doing away of the word filter in 2003/2004, but perhaps that's me and my ego. Regardless...

Sometimes, especially right now, I feel that I don't get the attention I deserve. I'm not talking about being promoted to a moderator or something incredibly stupid like that, but just the general well-wishes of people I like to think are my friends on here. I consider this website to be my 2nd home on the internet, and I've come to accept certain people on this forum as members of my family (if that sounds dumb, I'm sorry, but that's how it is).

Anyone that knows me knows that I've struggled and battled with drugs for... what seems like an eternity. I was a huge stoner, and developing an unhealthy habit with cocaine. I was arrested on October 30th for possession of a Sch. VI drug, among other things. I spent the wee hours of the morning in jail until my parents bonded me out. I've had an epiphany of sorts since then, and I've decided to be drug free for the remainder of my life (hopefully).

Now, what bothers me (and sue me if i sound like a prick), but I feel as if no one cares. Will & Rachel were the only ones that replied with well wishes (which means more to me than you two will ever know). I'm just at a loss of words. Often times it seems as if you have to be a popular member to get any sort of feedback in this thread.

Here's what I'm trying to get at: I feel like I've contributed my fair share of things to this website, and all I ask for is consolance in my time of my need. I've come to think of most of you as my family, but yet... I feel like no one cares about me.

There it is, for better or worse.

EDIT: I just thought I should clarify that I'm not begging for sympathy on my situation, and I'm not looking for a flood of members to express their sadness at my whole being arrested thing.

 

I genuinely hope it works out for you Casey, and I'm sorry for not posting anything the last time.

 

I hope everything turns out alright for you Casey, and good on you for quitting drugs.

I think that we all care, I mean, I cared, but it was just so shocking for me to read your situation the first time that I couldn't think of anything to say that would cheer you up, or do anything at all. So I apologize for that.

Be praying for you, man