Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

true that man^^. people, friends...especially those closest, take advantage of you when you give them so much. show him you need space...begin to give less..and show him that you care less...maybe then he'll realize he's missed his part on this friendship.

 

I want someone to like me.

 

I want my best friend back.

Her and I have had so many issues and its because I've always been concerned for her, and I always get it thrown back in my face. Like her ex was going to use her JUST FOR SEX, and was playing her at the same time. So, I tell her and she won't listen. Now, the dude's a bad guy with a worse reputation, so I panicked and was afraid he would rape her. So I told her parents about the guy.

She got pissed. She ended up thanking me 3 months later when he got arrested for date rape.

And then yet again, she picks someone who is using her just for sex. GIVES UP HER VIRGINITY to him, and when I tell her that he's gonna heat on her, she doesn't listen. I tell her that she's being an idiot, and is picking some douchebag over a friendship. We haven't been best friends since.

For the record, he did cheat on her, and thanks to my prior warning, she broke up with him and found a guy I actually approve of. But of course, now she won't talk to me, even though I've told her that I love her boyfriend and am really happy for her.

Fuck this, she's always going to pick someone over me.

 

Man, I'm lonely. Even though there are those who care about me, my life just feels so...empty.

Is it really odd to think about your ex everyday when you deep down know a relationship wouldn't work between the two of you even if she was willing to come back?

 

MEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

that felt good

 

The 2 times that i was gonna do it i didn't see her, when i decide that i wasn't gonna do anything i started seing her again. weird

I'm not gonna do anything about her, the times i see her she's always talking on the cell phone and she's always in a rush ( she must have a bf) *sighs*

Anyways i know people here loves to be positive and stuff but i can't help it, that girl is too hot for me, she's way outttttttttt of my league and she will never be with me, she's extremely beautiful, looks like a star really.

So i'm here everyday asking myself why i'm so insecure, i wish i was someone else with a lot of confidence and stuff but i'm not, i don't have any confidence in myself whatsoever regarding girls (maybe because of my bad history with them)

i'm so depressed, this loneliness is killing me what i'm going to do!??!!??!

i'm so obsessed with this girl and yet i know nothing will ever happen, FUCK.

thoughts?


I know everyone here is sick about me teling the same stuff everyday but i just had it to let it out (again!)

 

I promised myself I wouldn't fall for you again, but I did. You're just, just....gah. I know it can't work, and I know I have someone else I should be aiming for, but still...

 

one minute i hate her
one minute i love her

but either way i miss her warmth

 

I love me Samantha!

 

Meh... I just had a really weird dream, which was pathetic. Srly, you need to get over it, yeah you know it's you who I'm talking about. Get a fucking personality already and move on... Wtf... I'm not some kinda of therapist who has to listen to your problems every now and then things get fucked up. Fuck this. I'm full of it. Get a life, or at least don't get me involved.

Don't come and frustate me every time things doesn't work the way you want to. It's not the 1st time that lei has tried to hurt you, oh no, but there you go again, and believe all of lei's lies. Then you come fucking hurt to me, and I'm trying to help you, but what's the point? if you are just going to go back to the same thing all over again. You are the one who makes this hell, not me or lei. It's your decision to go back to lei because you just "can't take being without lei?". You are a huge dissapointment and this, so called "love" for lei is pathetic, just as you are. Don't be a fucking hypocrite, after all the shit you talked about lei when lei got mad at me, and you still are lei's "little puppet?"... Get real. Wake up already, not for me, simply because you make me, actually it's not me, it's everyone that you make sick with the same old story.

Venire qui, sulle sue ginocchia, and cry me a fucking river.

I'm sorry, but I'm done with lei and you. Fuck this already.

 

Thanks, babe

 

If you need to talk, you know where to catch me, babe

 

So the thing with Jasmine, she got a boyfriend. I'm happy for her.

And on my random roadtrip to visit friends in Houston, I made out with a hot Japanese girl 4 years older than me. To quote a great man, "Giggity giggity goo."

 

God, I'm pissed off now.

 

Better to be pissed off than pissed on?

 

Thanks, MX.

It actually cheered me up

 

i honestly have the greatest luck in the world. ffs. <_<

 

I think this might be going somewhere finally!!!!

 

God. Fucking. Shit, are they hollow people in college. all they want to do is hook up and get done. pah. >.<