Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

I love to sit in my weird big comfy pants, with no make up on and my hairs are all flat. I love to be lazy. And no mom, even though I love you, you're very wrong. I'm not fat, you're just obsessed with diet-ing.

 

Discrimination against minorities is for the weak.

 

Thats what I like to see, a girl stickin up for herself

 

Thanks

Actually, I just read it back again and I must look like this ugly lazyass to you all now.



I'm waaaay too jealous. o.o

 

Lazy?

Then I like lazy! Sounds like the perfect day to me!

 

I love her, yet she hates me.

 

Doesn't make any sense aye mate.

 

*sigh*

It's been one year since I first met my now ex girlfriend.

Not only does that show that, while last year at this time I met a girl I loved, and this year I am alone and lonely- it also reminds me of her and all the promises we had made about being together forever.

 

Is it bad that I spent 25 minutes of my history exam staring at her across the hall?

She hasn't said a word to me in over a week. Not even hi...

 

Hah. 25% of the dutch people wants to emigrate. I wonder why. Cause who wouldn't want to live in a country where the politics are so fucked up that you need to pay more and more every year so the ministers can have 10%-30% more salaries? Where they protect the Islam with all their might, no matter what 'kind' of Islam it is. The people grow more intolerant every year. And it's waaaay too full. If you look on the map, Holland is this tiny tiny country...with 16 million people!

No no, even though I still miss Holland, I'm good here and I don't think I would like to come back.

 

I never realized how much of my life revolved around her.

I named my car Jasmine... all my screennames have 76 in it, 6 being in there because that was her favorite number, 7 being in there because it was mine.

I found out today that in high school, her favorite number changed to 4, and I told her the significance of '76' to me. She said that was adorable.

Later on facebook, she changes her interests on facebook to '74 :]'

Does that mean she likes me too?

 

Aww that's cute haha

I hope she likes you too, but it could also be a sign of just friendship.
Why don't you make a move on her?

 

She also posted graffiti on my wall saying "n**** i <3 you!"

I'm buying her flowers today.

Oh, and this is an extension of my last post in here a few pages back.

And yes, I'm still having the dreams.

 

Good luck!

 

Ugh!!! I thought it was all over. I used to love her soooo much, it took me a whole fucking year to get over her, and then I thought I was over her. And then I talked to her last night, and I basically fell in love all over again. It sucks, it's like I'm trapped. Idk...

 

You know, you remind me of my best friend.


I know that he likes me no matter what. But I don't know. He's my bestfriend. And maybe things are better that way.

 

Shortly after finding a Hellsing drawing in my room, my mother sent me to several psychiatrists and therapists, and was eventually able to land me in a fucking mental hospital (of course, they let me out early, not being able to figure out why I was even there in the first place.) And then when I get home, my psychotic mother has disconnected my home and cell phone, hidden my computer (I'm using the one at school) thrown out half my drawings and sent the other ones to my doctors (when I got them back she tried to make me burn them, but I gave them away), thrown out half of my jewelry, and a bunch of accessories from my room. Including my autographed Killswitch Engage poster (which I waited in line, in the sun for 45 minutes to get) and my dragon figurine holding a Swarovski crystal. Then she proceeded to make me remove everything from my iPod "about death or Satan." And then she tried to tell me that every single cutter and person in a mental hospital is Goth, and the only reason they don't look like it is because their parents have taken their clothes, and that since I wear black it means I'm depressed.

WTF

But on the plus side, I'm finally completely over my ex. Thank god... he was really starting to get me down.

 

Daaaamn Lauren. I'm so sorry to hear that babe.

I really hope your mother will turn back to her senses soon enough cause that's just crazy. o.o