Got Something You Want To Let Out Part 2

Never mind...

*totally crushed*

 

She needs to stop this...seriously. If not, the next person she's gonna hurt is going to take it more seriously than you think and something bad is going to happen.

 

Egh, been there it sucks, dear <3

Yeah i kinda have that problem with this girl, she doesn't think things through and who it will effect :\

 

Thanks, Tom =] I really appreciate it
It's good to have you back, btw =]
<3

 

It's good to be back

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Ok, so i just found out she is now taken, hmm maybe i should have said something to her, and now I've missed my chance.....whiskey here i come -_-

 

I just told her one of my deepest, darkest secrets...wow.

 

Ugh.

Fucking anxious.

=//

 

what is with all the PARAWHORESSSS?

what you anxious about ori?

 

and all that could have been
Most. Depressing. Concept. Ever.

 

Well...today this is the big farewell. I now finally got to the bottom of it, and I know that it's not going to happen. I'm not going to say never, because you never know, but I take that with a very small grain of salt. I really care for her, I have for the past 12 months, but I guess I have to move on for good this time. It's really hard for me to move on, I've even started two relationships in the process of trying to move on and I had to end them, and in the end I always went back to her. But I've released I can't keep going back, it's never going to get me anymore. As much as I want to stay where I am now, I can't. My heart tells me I love her, I know I do love her, but she doesn't know and neither does anybody else for that matter. I've tried expressing it to her, I've tried changing, nothing works. If it's not my looks, then what is it? I can't figure it out. So anyways, there comes a point when you have to forgive everything and move on with the future. I have options, sooner or later I'll be a father raising a family somewhere hoping my children get everything they deserve. It really sucks moving on, I wish I didn't have to. I don't want some other guy that doesn't deserve someone as special as her to hurt her or anything, but maybe I am the one hurting her...I honestly don't know and I don't think I'll ever know the answer. Often people ask me ''What's so good about her'', and I honestly can't tell you. Everything, she is so beautiful, and I mean that in the most sincere way, and she is really kind and makes me laugh all the time. Not trying to get too sappy here, but I can't help it. So...this is the farewell. I'm going to try and move on. Whatever comes in the future, please let everything happen right.

 

HAH! JOIN ME ON MY PARAWHORENESS!

lol, it was school. I started today, so I was anxious, but it's good now. =]

 

I know the feeling, I'm sorry. But you can be strong enough to move on, you just have to know that you'll be okay without her, as much as it's going to hurt, you'll make it through.

 

God damn it girl!

Why are you with him? It seems like whenever I talk to you it's always they same. "I'll ttyl. I'm fighting with Nick."

LEAVE THE GUY! You were saying how you didn't like the fact that he does acid and all these other drugs. So why are you with him? All I have to say is leave his ass. He's no good. You could find so much better. Hell, Dan would be a lot better for you. And THAT'S saying something.

I'm only looking out for you. And I swear if he ever hits you, he's done. Cuz Andy, Dan, and I would kick the ever loving shit out of him.

 

Ugh. :-\

 

Have a hug!

wait, nope, have tons of hugs! <3

 

Meh. Nothing is really that wrong. I'm just annoyed. My ex-boyfriend just won't shutup about his girlfriend, and my other friend keeps hitting on me.

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Some of the people on deviantART disgust me.

 

@Ori: yeh, schools good when you pass the first day.
@Lauren: do you like the friend who is hitting on you? and forget exs...trust me..they aren't called exs for any other reason...

 

I guess I kinda like him, but he's a lot older than me.

And me and my ex are still really close. He was being better today.

Actually, everything was better today went much better than yesterday.

 

I hung out with a friend and I feel like I can be so open with her, I had the best time I've had with a girl in a while.

Why can't it be like that with HER (the one I'm into?).

 

that's good. my ex forced me back into a relationship with her...