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*hugz*

my 19 year old cat died because of that, she went blind also which isn't good.

 

It's so sad when pets pass away, Darcydear. I guess I cant say much but I'm sure something will make you feel btter soon because you deserve it.
And Holiday too. . I don't know what to say but atleast it can only get better...

 

I can tell the next few months are going to be busy. First, there's the new school. I'm going to get so confused because firstly, I don't know anyone, and secondly, none of my past schools used a block schedule, so it's going to confuse the shit out of me. Good thing I have spare first period (hmm, my first 'class' is a spare...wow.) so I can use that time hopefully to sort out my Planning courses (need to switch Planning 10 to first semester so I can take Planning 11 after school in the second semester. Yeah, sounds shitty, but I'd rather do it that way instead of having to do Planning 11 during grade 12, along side Portfolio [which is what Planning 10/11 lead up to, basically]. Fucking BC schools require Planning in order to graduate. ugh). Then there's also the fact that it's a completely new school, so I don't know all the rooms yet, but I'll figure that out quite quick, like I usually do (took me less than a week for REC).

School issues aside, now medical stuff. Firstly, I have an appt on Sept 11th at 9:30. Why the fuck do I have a doc appt booked during school, during the first few days of school, which are pretty much the most important? I have to do a full physical during this appt. Haven't done for a while, I don't think. And I'm starting to think I have allergies too, as I noticed in the garden a few months ago. =/ Then also, today the doc called me in because he wanted to see me. Not sure what exactly, but whatever. Went in and my mom started saying something about my speech problems and writing too. I told the doc I had speech trauma in grade 4 apparently, due to my mom and her mom yelling all the time [according to my dad]. Also he had me write out a sentence or something just to see how my writing was. Sure, somewhat messy, but legible. Lets just say, he wrote me a note afterwards [for my school 'headmaster', so they can arrange some speech therapy for me] and his writing was FAR less readable than mine. I should become a doctor, then I'd have an excuse for my messy writing. *mutters* He also wrote down (on another note) that I had an eye doc specialist appt in October (Friday the 13th, wow.) which I was told to give to the receptionist to verify that. I'm surprised she was able to read it and re-write it for me.

Lastly, I'm still unsure what's happening between my parents. Is my dad going to stay or is he going? If he goes (and I'll be going with him - had enough of my mom), how will that affect my life? I know their relationship's been cold ever since my dad first tried when I was young (he returned because of me), but still, why does this have to happen? My mom's hopeless by herself, we all know that, but why does she continuously make it worse for herself by yelling all the time and making a nuisance of herself? She can be such a bitch 90% of the time, and also moody. I swear she's fucked up. Why can't this wait till I'm 18, so this will affect me less [as in I'm a legal adult, so I can go live on my own, and let them deal with this themselves.] Actually, how would it affect me as an adult? Hmm.


If you bothered to read all of that, take your 5 minutes of your life back, I didn't expect you to read it. Just needed to write it down somewhere. =p

 

Wow, thats a lot of stuff going on at one time. . Well I'm just a stupid sorta newb but I really think you should just forget all about this for atleast one day, about your mom, dad, school, EVERYTHING and just do something you feel like. Enjoy the fuck out of yourself for a day without feeling guilty, then take things one at a time as they come. And dont think extra about anything- just deal with it when it comes and forget about it when its over until everything is sorted out. Wish you luck.

 

Oh, I have been trying. Kinda hard to keep in all in the back of your mind while it's all unfolding infront of your eyes at the same time. *shrug*

 

Well, dont keep it at the back of your mind, just dont dwell on it, you if you knwo what I mean. If it socks you on the face, just you know, deal with it quickly, but just dont think about it whenever you can. Ok, I'm getting confused, so I'll shut up now, but I really hope you get a break.

 

Foreigners do my flipping nut in, especially ones that randomly add you on msn. This certain one cannot be arsed to use a flipping translator to talk to me back in English. I made an effort to talk to them in their native tongue, the least they could do is the same back. But no, they still reply in French not even proper French at that, slang and it does my nut in as the translator gets its knickers in a twist, I get annoyed, and if this person aint careful I am really gunna lose it at them today.

Plus it doesn't help that their screen name is a little fullstop .
So when I try to open the tab on my convo windows I accidentally close the window aggrivating me even more.

Can I just please put a gun to their head, as they are really starting to p!ss me off.

I don't like swearing on message boards, and I do try hard not to, but this person is seriously looking for a slap.

 

He carried on speaking in bad French, so i told him to 'FUCK OFF CUZ HE IS AN ANNOYING LITTLE FUCK FACE' then I blocked him..

grr.. local elections on the 15th October.. I won;t be able to vote because I don't 18 until the 17th October.. How annoying is that?

 

Miaz: you just couldve blocked them in the first place

 

I wanted them to know what an annoying like sh!t face they were being :angry:

 

w00t hello angry chick!
yeah on my msn i get really wierd people adding me, and they dont even speak english

 

So you understand how annoying they can be then

It is so easy to just google a translator... but NO they cannot be assed to get off their fat butts to find one to make conversations easier

 

yea lol, talking of msn is anyone online now? cause mine seems to be down

 

Everyone keeps disconnecting or not being able to log on.. I don't use MSN messenger and mine is screwed up.

 

oh right, coolio

well i might get AIM or something else, i dunno.

 

I use Gaim (a messenger thing for Linux) it is compatable with any messenger you can think of.. plus all accounts can be online at the same time.. even multiple hotmail accounts

 

wow nice, so kinda like trillion?

well i use Gmail

 

Probably we have to take Taro's eye out. It's horrible. Tumor.

 

Work sucks.
First Real day tomorrow, and I'm working by myself.