Got Something You Want To Let Out?

Want to vent about whatever made you go arrgh in anger?

 

So one of my friends' mom killed herself by overdose from xanax. Two of my best friends are moving to San Antonio tomorrow, and my weed dealer is moving to Murfreesboro soon. On top of all that, my "friends with benefits" got the shit beat out of her tonight by one of my close friends over something that she said at the lunch table that was taken the wrong way.

Fuck this week.

 

Nah, it's ok, Malilove. I've decided to try and be happy for a change instead of constantly grumbling. it's not like my father died in train serial blasts when I was only 6, like the girl in the newspaper today. God forbid.

 

I cried myself to sleep last night. It's the most horrible feeling ever. I feel weak and worthless.

I really fucked up this time.

But guess it was ineitable with my nature.

I can't sign on. I'm scared the next time I talk to him it'll be the last time. I don't want this to happen if it's going the wau I think it is. He's the best thing to ever happen to me. I don't want that ripped away too.

 

two cents steve

 

Amanda- I'm useless with words, I really hope everything turns out spectacularly fine.



[edit] He thinks it's funny, and it's not, it's cruel.

 

So we're cool now. He's still pissed, I can hear it in his voice, but I think with time this'll even out.

I'm still shaking.

The phone rang and I almost shit myself.

I'm just so happy he called.

 

ok she does it every time, it pisses me off more than anything!! gah i fucking hate her.

 

Maxime: 'Marj, please come live here after you have finished school. You can learn better French here, and if I report that we live together but you're without work for the moment, we get extra money so we don't have to worry about how much money we have every month. Will you please come and live with me after you finished school?'
Me: '... o.o...'


I would love to, because everytime we need to seperate again a little part in me dies and we both know that we will end up together anyway.
But on the other hand, I feel that I can't do this to my parents.
Well, my dad that is, I know that my mom knows that we will end up together, but my dad still sees me as his little girl and I hate that, I really hate that so much.
And I know he won't support this.

 

shit. It is good that your mom realises. Are you VERY serious about Maxime, Marj?

 

Yeah, I'm very serious.
I mean, he is the only person in the world I that I feel ultra comfy around, know what I mean?
So yeah...everytime I talk about this I feel all hyper inside lol

 

Haha, great. I hope he makes you happy love. Have you discussed matters with your lovely sisterP ) Leonie?

 

well, I just emailed her, and I told her about it. But, I'm sure she saw this coming

 

Haha I see.
I am so confused. About Musa.

 

Tell me about it hunny.

 

hmm well he told me he loved me, and i do sort of like him back. BUT we havent't talked to him since that, and he might have changed his mind. And I don't want to hurt so badly as I did the last time I liked some one. Shit, I hate this. No one up till now, who I like has liked me back.

 

Well babes, if he said he loves you, and it is true, then he can not change his mind so suddenly..Why don't you give him a phonecall?

 

Marj, if you have your mom's support, I'm sure she can help you out with your dad, if he isn't cooperative at first. But you know, I doubt you'll have much problems with your dad, if you talk to him real seriously about it, and tell him you're sure that this is what you want. Just don't worry about it. [yeah, easier said than done usually, but still.]

 

Mmmhm, I guess you're right. I'm gonna try to talk to him and if it doesn't help, I will ask my mom for support lol
thanks