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Oh, You'd be surprised how many times my mom has picked me up and I had just finished a joint or something.

The only problem is, dope's no fun anymore because all that happens is I get paranoid and my chest pounds. I need to either start smoking more, or stop smoking for a while.
I know the obvious answer, but I think I'll go with Stop smoking instead.

 

See, you're putting yourself through more work when you have to hide the fact that you're drinking and smoking. That's what's getting your heart pounding, because you're scared (for loss of better wording) that your mom is going to figure out, and you'll lose all your freedom. imo, it's more enjoyable to have an occasional drink than to be drinking all the time, if you know what I mean. The more you drink the more it'll get boring. I dunno about smoking, as I've never smoked (never planning on it either) so I can't quite comment on that.

 

Drinking is no problem, because I never trip out with that.

Dope is the problem, and I think it's mainly because when I do do it, I'm with my girlfriend and we go to her house after.
And, her father is a 400 pound man who used to be the biggest drug dealer in the north end of dartmouth where I live.
I've been to his house many times high, but never when he's home.
But, I start to trip out and think he's coming home.
craziness.
And, It's taking more and more to get me high like I used to be.
I'm up to 3 grams to get me really high, so I'm going to cut back.
And, I wrote my math exam high, which isn't a smart thing to do.
I got a 32 on it, and brough my mark from like a 70, to a 51.

 

Yeaah, you might want to cut back on that then. ;]

 

Speaking of which, I haven't done it in like 2 weeks.
And, I'm drinking later on today, after I get some sleep.
I don't care what my mother says.

 

I don't have much problems with drinking, as long as you keep it moderate and don't overdo it, but I can't stand smoking. It throws me into a coughing fit whenever I smell the slightest bit of smoke, and it also fucks with your brain and body.

Anyways, I'm off to sleep. Just be careful around your parents before you push it too far. There's always a line somewhere.

 

Thanks for the advice, and tomorrow, I'm crashing at my Buddy's house, so I should be alright.

 

People..please help me...

This is a problem i face with everyday...i went 2 my prom with this girl..that i rly thought liked me cuz of wut her friends said and wut her sister said. So then i asked her out and she said no she thought it wuld be better if we were just friends. And i was like holy sh*t! and ever since then weve been friends and she plays minds game with me everytime pretending that she likes me

But i kno deep down she really dosent!! she like hits on my brother more than she hits on me...and like it kills me inside every freggin day! im like this, i havent eaten in about 2 days...and i really need some advice. i always fall for girls i cant get! and it kills me. so please tell me wut 2 do, ive tryed turning to linkin park music but nothing seems 2 help me at this point. And i dont wanna let her go! i want her soo f-cking badly!


please help.... ill honestly really appreciate it..

 

If you know that she does not really have any serious feelings for you, don't waste your time thinking about her, I know it is hard, but seriously it isn't worth your time. I know you're feeling very tortured, and a lot of people can relate to this situation. Don't let these feeling stop you from eating, Eat up soldier!! Keep your chin up, there are girls a-plenty that will like you for who you are, and who will see something in you that this girl hadn't.

I suggest you let time do it's thing, just don't let her deprive you of any of your daily activities. Try your best not to think about her. Instead, channel your frustation of this situation into games, writing, exercising, working out. Time will heal all wounds, you'll be fine, you'll find the one that is truly right for you.

 

OMGWTFBBQSAUCE! Happy 30 months to me and sweetheart =D

 

I love my bestest friends. They say sweet and lovely things, and it makes me feel so happy inside.

My parents once read some of the things that I wrote (fanfiction, song lyrics, etc) and made fun of me. Nicely. And then said that I shouldn't waste my time on fanfiction, and should rather write original fiction.

Congratulations to you and your love, LostWound!

 

I know that feeling Malidear. It feels good inside. Good on ya, mate!

 

You must be getting some shady weed if you're tripping out. Maybe it's laced with something.

 

Why couldn't she just stay in Winnipeg? She's already creating hell in this house. This is the first time since I've moved in that I want to get out and go somewhere because of whatever problems happening. it was so nice and peaceful when she was still in Winnipeg, everything ran so smoothly. Now with her back, we're probably the loudest house on the court/bay/whatever. Not because of my music this time.

 

My new opinion of drinking and smoking is negative. I believe that underage drinking and smoking are unnecessary. People can unwind in other fashions. People can have good times without the help of substance. People can make their own fun and not rely on drugs to do it for them. I won't officially become sxe or whatever you call it, but I don't think I'm gonna smoke and drink until I am legal, or at least in college.

 

I really miss Jared. Allthough I don't speak of it much, I think about him all the time. It sucks, I really don't want anyone else besides him anymore. We just spoke online for a while and he told me he can't stop thinking about me either.

What do you do when you want to get over a person, but you just can't? I've had this happen to me before and it took me over two years to get over the guy. I don't want it happening again.

 

ARGH.

 

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